let us all take a minute to remember my two hamsters who have left this world so suddenly. they had no names and no identities, but they were good rodents and wonderful friends to bran. may they rest in peace.

HAHA my dad was rejoicing more than anything. he hated the smel. but he is no mean person, don't worry. :)

MY STUPID PHONE CAN'T RECEIVE ANY MESSAGESS. and my keyboard is abit spoilt to so i'm smashing my heart out right now, trying to type complete words.

let's think of something funny because funny is nice. HM. OH YAH, at mos burger last sunday i was opening a chili packet with my mouth [and all of you think i'm obsessed with using my mouth to open stuff] and i tore the whole thing open almost into two seperate pieces and chili flew out on the table. my two buddies and the brother [joel] were gagging at me, needless to say, and i said i felt so clumsy. then a few minutes later raye ripped another victim chili packet into two and CHILLI FLEW ALL OVER HER PINK SKIRT. now, everyone would think i'd be feeling happy and would laugh at her mercilessly, and I DID, only to throw my head back and hit the bench back rest behind me while trying to exggagerate a laugh. BONK! very pain.. and embarrassing. in the end everyone was still laughing at me.. somehow i always manage to becoe the object of humour. i guess it's good. painful, but good. i think my head is dented.. :|

AH, still bothered by the tim low thing. being human stinks. anyway, lets talk about today. went to ah mah's house to see her. her backbone's all messed up and healthwise she's just okay. she was SO nice and gave tim and i some money to spend in china. i wish i could speak teochew! =( grandparents are special people..

then the lee boys went to cash converters to find tim's earphones because his old ones are all 'nua'. then the lee girls went to northpoint just for fun. MY DAY.

bran sheeshee-d on the floor beside the piano today. CARAZEE DAWG!

=( timlow very angry at meeeeee. because i kept teasing him about some stuff and he can't take it. ok lah, i'll stop, for the sake of his mental stability. wonder how everyone would be if they reacted to teasing like he does. everyone would be dead because they killed each other off. MAN. and he doesn't like people to poke fun at him either [heads up, cannot say anything about him one.] he posted it up on his blog. he was seriously mad over teasing. i tease everyone and practically everyone does it back, and i guess we all just learn to laugh about it. right, no offense to tim who cannot take it. it's fine. =) feel free to tease me and not worry about me doing it back to you. i like peace.

this week has brought me many quarrels. =( I DON LIKE.. i'll bring a peace offering on sunday. chachos or lays? :)

had a huge miscom with timlow and tianlong toodayyyyyy. i feel sad and bad, and angry at timlow. hard to explain, but basically tim thought i was having crappy attitude probs by getting him to eat with us then running off someplace else. AIYAH HE THOUGHT I TRICKED HIM LAH, which i would never do, BTW. and i was all shocked when he scolded me over sms saying he was pised at my attitude. [??????] and when i wanted to clear things up, he didn't pick up my calls or reply my msgs. then on msn he was just talking about how pissed he was and i was trying to explain and saying SORRY SORRY SORRY. so he was ok after while and said he wasn't angry. then he talked about some other stuff and he got abit mad and ended the conversation with, "forget it...." then he went offline real quick. aiyahhhhh, some ppl i just can't get along with. but it's okayyy. it's not like it's the first time we've had a miscom. in the end we'll talk normally again and then get another miscom and the cycle goes on.

then i felt bad about tianlong. SORRY TIANLONG, didn't eat with you nor explain why. it probably looked like i had something against him, and i don't i don't i don't. =) can everyone smile and be happy? i feel like a very bad person... sorry to everyone i've ever offended.

someone upstairs is playing the piano often now, sad sad songs that make me all solemn. doesn't make me feel very happy. :(

thanks, sher, for the poster. lunch was nice with u all. =) don't worry, we'll still see each other, ya? heehee. promise to go vivo with y'all when we 'can't relly see each other anymore'.

When living life for Jesus Christ becomes too hard a task,
When obedience means sacrifice that seems too much to ask;
That’s when I learn that my own strength isn’t really strength at all,
And I find rest in humbleness when I surrender all.

In my weakness He is strong;
In my need He leads me on.
When I come to the end of all I am,
And I place my trust in Him;
That’s when His strength begins –
In my weakness.

When failures in my human strength have weakened all my pride,
And ruined hopes in fallen dreams have crumbled me inside;
It’s then by grace I fin’lly see the strength of Jesus Christ,
His victory is real in me when weakness fills my life.

In my weakness He is strong;
In my need He leads me on.
When I come to the end of all I am,
And I place my trust in Him;
That’s when His strength begins –
In my weakness.

lovelay song. it's in my head and i'm loving it. it's nice to have a wholesome song as an earbug.


HAHAR. yesterday someone [who shall remain unnamed bcos he may be reading my blog too] was chatting over sms about a certain girl he liked and all and all and all that kind of crush crap that i don't really poke my nose into unless u're really close to me or unless i'm seriously interested. so i just gave my opinion straight on into his face and told him i can see that he likes pretty girls, and he replied back : yeah, that's why i dun go for you. [timmy is probably shaking his head now in slooow motion thinking of the impending doom this boy is about to face after saying those impudent words to me, agnes lee. ] so i gave the immature boy the benefit of the doubt and didn't burst out or call him to fire back or anything. i just told him he sounds like a shallow childish 'player', but of course, not in those words. then i embarrassed him a little by saying christians shouldn't have flings and dating should be working toward knowing a person better because you think you may actualy marry her and i found it funny that he wanted to 'work towards marriage' so fast. and he was like half agreeing and half really pissed but unable to disagree. HE WANTED TO TALK TO ME ABOUT THAT KIND OF THING THEN I KENA INSULTED AND CALLED UGLY IN MY FACE FOR NOTHING AS IF IT AMUSES HIM TO SEE ME JUST REPLY BACK SOMETHING VICTIM-ISH AND COWARDLY LIKE, "yeah, i know i'm not pretty" or somthin. how can you disrespect a person like that??? AIIYOHHHH. and i was actually using up brain power to reply him lah, nomatter how childish he sounded lah, and nomatter how tall or handsome he keeps saying he is lah. hao xin mei hao bao. BUT i didn't kill him or anything. i was nice and all. i guess i just left him relly embarrassed.* shrugs shoulders*

for once i shall use PCK's words, DON PLAY PLAYYY. and don't disrespect people, although there's a line between joking and insulting straight on like there's no tomorrow.

and when i told raye i was talking to him she was coaching me and trying to persuade me to tell him i'm not interested in his life and to GO AWAY. but i was so nice. AIIYARRR...

and FYI i know i'm not exactly pretty but being beautiful is more important than being pretty. what's the value in being the prettiest person in the world if you have nothing to value on the inside? i'm good being the ordinary button-nosed pimple face with no double eyelids, i can still be beautiful inside out. :)

and if you're good looking then good for you. you can have the best of both worlds! and count yourselves blessed bcos you weren't the ones designing your own faces before you were born. =D

ayeayeaye, i wanna go rockclimbing and kayaking. my two fav sports in the world ... and raye and sher, LET'S GO KICK SOME BOXING BUTT!

SCOTCH TAPE IS HAZARDOUS! i was wrapping a gift and i usually use my teeth to cut tape [all you who got gifts from me are probably running off to disinfect them. hee] EASIER LAR. anywayyy, my hands were in a weird position and the tape stuck onto my lip, then in a frenzy i rrrripped the tape off and found 10% of my lip on the piece of tape. AAAAAAAAYE ! pain leh, you dun believe go try lor. so now i have red patch of lip. partial natural lip color! positive thinking is nonsense. :D

mom says i have good writing skills and i should develop in that area. HM. i don't know what i want to be when i 'grow up' because i can't make up my mind. i like so many things. WE SHALL SEE, right? :)

raye's new job' dumb [comforting you, raye] and i hope she can get better one. :(

gotta do some renovation on my daily schedule. i'm slacking. i'm human.

see ya'll sunday. *TEETH-SMILE!*

Romans 2:1-4 Therefore thou art inexcusable, O man, whosoever thou art that judgest: for wherein thou judgest another, thou condemnest thyself; for thou that judgest doest the same things. But we are sure that the judgment of God is according to truth against them which commit such things. And thinkest thou this, O man, that judgest them which do such things, and doest the same, that thou shalt escape the judgment of God? Or despisest thou the riches of his goodness and forbearance and longsuffering; not knowing that the goodness of God leadeth thee to repentance?

was doing my bible reading [ i admit, i'm not altogether very consistent in it. TRYING!] and read romans 2. i guess i can't really blame people in general for judging because it's human nature. the first four bunch of verses was a good reminder that sometimes.. OK. many many times, i say things about people and their point out their faults only to turn around and do the same. it's more subtil than it seems! :( good lesson. let's not be hypocritical phrisees who pick on everyone's faults and rebuke them, be it in out hearts or verbally. i think it's probably best to see, pray for people, and LEARN. yay, i learned sth today! :)

see y'all.

was going through my small photo collection in my messy picasa and took some time to look closely at the hmong photos [again. for he hundredth time]. the photos make me smile really big smiles. they kind of make me remember the fun and the carefree feeling i had there. I LOVE PHOTOS, speaking of which, can shermaine please send me photos of us at the wedding, and rachel please send me the photos of us at ABM's anniversair, especially the ones of me harrassing the boy-painting on the wall. THANKYOO. eeyer, so many ppl 'owe' me photos. :)

trying to study. blah blah blah iceland's economy blah blah. raye found a job. congrachoolayshens, even though you don't like it.

ahem. ANNOUNCEMENT! for the record, i don't have any crush on anyone.

SIX PACKS are wonderful things. it's like a trophy, only higher maintenence. am slowly [and i mean, slloowly] working toward my six pack so CHEER ME ON!

yay, the haze is dying. hopefully it won't come back EVA EVA AGAIN. :)

started packing for beijing and everyone's giving advice regarding the temperature there. aw, so caring. 10 days, you know. will anyone miss me? WAIT. my aunty got msn anot ah? HM. will try to blog from there if i'm not having TOO MUCH FUN. muahaha. kiddeeng. OH, my aunt was listing down places to go and she metioned SPA and i shouted MANICURE and horseback riding and arts museum. spa, baby. massages and facials and nice [hopefully] ladies scrubbing your feet. LOL. think so far then in the end only got one grimy massage chair. HAHAR. *grins*

obviosuly i'm excited. and you all are bored. =D

had art test today. i'm ashamed, my drawing looked like C-R-A-P. *sighs* blame it on the cheap substitute materials. blame it on the cheapo owner.

it's rainy rainy here today. LOVELAY.

SATURDAYDAYDAY

went to mee da-gu and the gang at chinatown and got the meeting place mixed up. BUT it's okay. :) shopped for winter stuff and got a pretty little jacket! I LOVE IT. it is plain beautefool. got some other stuff. then we all went to a japanese restaurant for sushi and SASHIMI. sashimi. AAH! sashimi is just raw meat in think slices that you ingest! i liked it. felt high class eating it. =) no taste one, just the texture that's weird. I LOVE SASHIMI. then we went to her place she used to own a shop full of clothes so as usual i brough some stuff back. God takes care of me. :) they sent me home and came in for a while so i made timmy show da-gu some hmong clips.

TOODAY!

went to church and germaine, gerlynn, tianlong and ruixiang came. a guy called bro. bong preached. it was good. raye says he's funny. so after church i was finding an eating buddy and raye was prime candidate, so i had mossy burger with the david siblings. then i went to orchard to see melody, sam, josh, and jiaen AND IT'S BEEN SUCH A LONG TIME that we're all awkward now. normal. anyway josh went off with his very good friend who's a girl [he just won't admit so i can't say it's his GF] leaving me and mel with two bewildered guys. window shopped until very sian and drooling all over so we went back home. was wearing a stupid turtle neck so i was choking half the time. no, all the time. this is singapore lah, what was i thinking.. while we were walking, mel asked me, "so you gotta BF?" then i promptly replied, "nope. nobody wants meee." the sadness of it all. had good boring fun. still fun. happy to see them all again. AW..



and add it into your busy schedules to smile and be loved.

yesterday the barbeque was chaged to a pot luck then back to a barbeque again and i think we have sinned by adding on to the haze. =( WAH, must give credit, the chicken wings and roast beef were WON-TOU-FU! makes me drool to think about them. sher and i stuck together the whole time [nt surprising rite] and had some funny fun. i don't think i can elaborate because it is inappropiate information. :)) we hoarded all our food and went to the pebble walk outside to eat and be eaten by mosquitoes. i kind of underminded the itch and thought it wouldn't really bother me too much BUT those were, a mutated mosquito-rex super stealthy super lethal breed, and they were quite cheeky too because they bit me not only on my every limb but managed to get to my BUTTOCKS. my butt, ppl. the intelligence.. =| so anyway, there was a missionary from the philippines and his exaltation was the best-- 5 mins. i could pay attention all the way! shared about john 14:6 and how we forget to apply it alot in our life. usually we think it's for wittnessing ONLY. we forget. simple things in simple sentences he said had so much truth. it doesn't take alot of words to make a person see a point. GOOD POINT.

woke up this morning feeling very stoned and the bites are extreeeemly swollon. unusual leh, and oh so unbearable. my muscles are all aching too, due to a crazy exercising fit i have every other day. you know what got me up? A POT OF TEA. i was stumblin round the kitchen wondering what had the most caffine, and tea was the answer. out of bread so i had to fry roti prata and eat leftover curry from yesterday.

later i'm gonna go shopping with my dad's sister for the first time, maybe since i was 10. she's the one sponsoring me for the beiing trip. :) hope to have fun. i'll just be me.

had another dream but i won't share. it was basically about some of us going to another village, only thing it was in peru or thereabouts. ah.. villages.

have a good saturday. read yer bibles! :)

thank God it's raining! hopeully it'll wash down some haze. [tt sounded abit dumb] was looking out the window and remembered one scene years ago when we were still living at yishun st. 81. i think it was hazy and raining too, just like now, only thing the rain was much heavier. anyway, tim and i would follow our neighbour down to play every now and then. as i said it was long long ago .. think i was pri. 1 or 2. so some other crazy yishun kids would bring their bikes down to cycle at the void deck, knowing that eventually someone was gonna lead everyone into the rain. the myth of the year was acid rain. acid rain was real, but not our acid rain. we thought acid rain was ACID and pure acid, fullstop, coming down from the sky. it's deadly. just another warped fact we concluded from a partial viewing of the news. if it touched us we'd theoretically melt and become green goo. AT LEAST THAT WAS WHAT I THOUGHT LAH, OK? so one by one they cycled out and back in and daring other people to acidify themselves and their bikes. after a while i stuck my hand out too, only to pull it back, check if my skin was dissolving, and smell the deadly rain just out of curiosity.

ignorance is fearful, people. bliss my foot.

anyway, i love the rain...

going early to bro. Dan's house to make some dessert for the pot luck later. sis. Suwei is into trying to make me go out and explore more and enjoy my youth and experience things and go to exhibitions and learn trades and start pasam malam stores and, oh so many more things she thinks i need to do. she conversed with me about it over lunch too, casually. she said, "education is about more than just your paces(my schoolbooks). "... etc. MANY MANY ppl say that and more to me, and it kind of makes me wonder why they feel like they needed to say that in the first place. sometimes people, young and old, see some things or hear some things and think they have a totally factual idea about how i live everyday as a homeschooler, eg: laze around all day. no chinese=hate chinese and don value roots. no physical fitness. no friends. unsociable. stuck up because they think they know it all. ETC. yes, that is called judging, and it is not fair to me. furthermore, if you think that way about me, i wonder what kind of a person you are.

so people, i desporately plead. if you have any of those idas about me or timmy please get to know us before you fix in your mind a preconcieved or untrue picture of the lee siblings.

yay, my blog is getting older and is accumelating more posts! i always admire blogs more established than mine. :) i was just reading my past posts and guess what? I WAS LAUGHING AT MY OWN WRITING STYLE. i looked stupid but it's okay. i wonder if i'll still be blogging a year from now, or a few years from now. HMM.

so, today. my loving aunt and uncle came as they always do, to celebrate tim's birthday. they came in the morning and just wanted to drop off the cake, glorious cake, but my mommy made them stay to cut the cake and take pics. AW. THEN the day became boring again and i had school.

excuse me, for i have to go make the dog food for the royal shih tzu that inhabits this house.

advanced birthday lunch for timmy was held at pizza hut today. the outlet at SSC is almost deserted, which was a pleasurable thing for our family. it was like my daddy booked the whole place. :) anyway, our family has a habit and tendency to talk and shout and laugh and make other bodily sounds REALLY loud when we eat. had a good time even though the food wasn't THAT special. tim brought his camera so i'll put up some pics later. tomorrow's the actual day, so everyone, remember to wish timmyif you're a good person, or buy him a gift if you're nice, or buy him and his sister a gift if you're really nice, or just buy his sister a gift if you're an idiot. so after stuffing ourselves with an assortment of cheese, we proceeded to walk around SSC just for the fun and mainly for the air-con. SINGAPOREANS, pfft.

remembering sunday's funny moments. actually just one moment lah. i shall share. :P raye had a bad hair day, as we all do, and she hadto use gel to tame her locks. so she and i met at the corridoor at church and i said,
A: you just bathed or wad..
R: huh?
A: nothin. your hair looks wet.
R: gel lah. the hair so curly..
A: oh. aw..
so we walk into the hall and sit down and Psng is preparing his mike and everything and he says,
Ps: is she okay?
A: huh?
Ps: wad happened to her?
A: wad happened?
Ps: she looks wet.
A: laughing like S-I-A-O. erm, uh, *thinking, stop talking!*
Ps: looks like she fell into a pond...

a pond. A POND.

A: *thinking, oh crap. he has his mike on. SWITCHED ON.* laughs uncontrollably.
R: wahh? huh?
A: he says you look like you fell in ... a pond. *continues laughing and fans self in the face because it's so red.*
R: *wants to smash head in wall. over and over.*

5 minutes later.
A: a pond. a pond! HAHAHAAA. fans self. <-- tt routine continued for the entire day.

suddenly i was being chased my secret service people in an asian country (shall not specify or everyone will robably think i'm racist). they caught me and some other people and locked us up in a room where they radioed to another base and said something. i got out of my ropes and saw a window. pretended to be tied up until the guards went away, then i tore open the wire grid and kicked the tiny window until it gave way. OH NO, too small, my butt's too big to fit. THEY'RE COMING, must have heard my loud kicking. i tore another window nd kicked it until my foot bled and slipped out through the glassy holes only to find myself facing alot of ropes and the ground below, not so near below. now they're shooting! CHEONG ARR... i grabbed a rope and swung here and there dodging bulletsand then changed rope and changed rope until i smashed back first into the busy road below. giddy giddy. they shouted and started for the stairs i ran into the street and the shops until they lost me.

that was one of the three weird dreams i can vaguely recall, and i'm not making any part up. funny rite? so, THREE dreams in one night, and i woke up to hear the sound of my daddy's voice, ELEVEN O'CLOCK AREDY AH, WAD FIVE MORE MINUTES?!
(man, 11.) i got up and was so dissapointed the dream wasn't real and i wasn't a hero. then my legs got itchy so i washed up and got into running attire, still asleep. then i got on the treadmill, still asleep.i wanted to run, BUT I WAS STILL ASLEEP! so i started walking, and my eyes started closing. so i increased the speed and kept doing that to keep myself awake. WALKED 2km and took a freezing shower, ate whatever tim left over from his breakfast, namely, half a pepper sausage and baked beans, and thought about my dreams. then my daddy mae yong tau fu for us and i told him my dream (the one above). nothing beats his superman dreams lar, it's no new thing to him. so now i'm eating yong tau fu and drinking my drug, KOPI O, and blogging. so far so good, i love saturdays.

see you soon, loves.

went to the polyclinic in the morning to get my skin checked out AGAIN. remember thel ast visit to the doctor? read past posts if you don't. so, turns out i ate antibiotics and rubbed antibiotic cream for NOTHING because he doctor today said the streaks on my thighs are just stretch marks due to stretching (duh) AND my legs growing longer. YAY my legs are growing longer! she says they'll continue growing until i'm 21. i love that doctor. no need for medication, just buy some cream from watsons. *big grin* relief, man. i thought it was some flesh-eating worm or some cancerous growth. :)

recently there have been wasps, nasty wasps, visiting my humble home and freaking me and tim out. TSK. today one buzzed in again while i was watching TV and i got really really mad. GIVE ME THE INSECTICIDE, i said in my monster-bear nobody's gonna stop me now i'm soso fed-up voice. so i sprayed the guy and immediately all my bravery went away and i was left there confronting the insect, who was angry (i could tell by it's tone of buzz)andi just stood there freaking out and dodging like an idiot. it flew around the living room and the i don't know where it went. victory? almost. victory = wasp dead at my feeeet!

and all those save-the-wasps people are gonna protest at my door tomorrow morning.

i'm still so sad my picture didn't sell. maybe in 100 years time my drawings will be found in an excavation and will be put up in a museum to be sold for thousands of dollars. won't matter anyway, i'm not the one getting the money. PFFT. and i continue to daydream...

what do you do after you just came back from church and are tired out and bored? TAKE STUPID PICTURES WHILE HARASSING YOUR DOG! bran looks shocked and petrified! hahar.
 

lets take a look at my most recent drawings and one painting. do not, however, take the time ti insult me when you see me. art is subjective, people. (i just pull out tt phrase when i get bad remarks, heehee.) trust me, the pics look much more detailed in real life. so, come my house and see! or, BUY! haha. dream on. i tried to sell the asian girl one to someone but HE said it didn't look like the person it was supposed to be and DOESN'T WANT IT. crys. now i have, lets see, fifteen pictures up on my wall. yay! i think my the time i'm 20 i'd have BUILT a wall out of pictures. hee.. cheer me on leh. pouts.


 

MY FUNNY HAIR!