MY DOG IS SO CUTE. sometimes i really can't stand his adorability and i feel like hugging him until his eyeballs pop out.
UMM, that sounded sadistic. what i mean is I LOVE MY DOG.

his eyeballs are unbelievable. he can challenge those chameleons.

CUUTE RIIGHT?! bran endorses nike. ;))

DOOLY FACE! doo-ly~

Vois sur ton Chemin

Vois sur ton chemin
Gamins oubliés égarés
Donne-leur la main
Pour les mener
Vers d'autres lendemains

Sens au cœur de la nuit
L'onde d'espoir
Ardeur de la vie
Sentier de gloire

Bonheurs enfantins
Trop vite oubliés effacés
Une lumière dorée brille sans fin
Tout au bout du chemin

Sens au cœur de la nuit
L'onde d'espoir
Ardeur de la vie
Sentier de gloire

looking forward to vienna boys' choir now. whopee~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RAYE.

i feel bad that i thought her birthday was tomorrow. aw~

(agnes singing) THANK GOD FOR THE RAINNNNN~ i like i like.
and i mean the actual rain, not mr. rain.

the songs from Les Choristes are in my head! i'm sorta learning to sing some. (HEH!) i wish my parents stuck me in a choir when i was younger. singing kids are so cute. oh yes, did i mention? i have an ULCER in my throat. mom says for some reason i'm very prone to that. trying to keep it under control else my throat becomes a pus farm again, bad memories. it's not a very big ulcer but it hurts. still, i'm singing those frenchie songs inspite. haha, i think my family is irked out by my voice floating around the house all day, like a ghost's. sorry lah, abit out of tune. :D

fighting!

got fedup with matching clothes this morning so i just threw on a dress. i think i'm wearing all my dresses too often. they're so convenient lah! (and airy. ehh ;))

today the passage for SBH was 1 corinthians 9-10. i tried my best to pay attention, daydreamed a little in the middle. (i'm sorrry.) then it was aunty janet's and my turn to teach chapel. was genuinely feeling nervous before that. i'm always afraid i'll like, say something wrong and ruin a child's life forever or something ridiculous like that. i think i did alright, thank God. :D the kids are sweet when they're not fighting.

napped for a while when i came back, but woke up because i was SWEATING. then accompanied mommy down for a stroll to guardian and watsons, etc. i bought a pretty notebook since the old one ran out of pages.

i'm so sleepy now.

woke up the latest i could today, cause i was so SO sleepy! i still am now, in fact. went down to dabao food. i would have skipped breakfast if i could, but my appetite's ridiculous nowadays. i used to think i was one of those blessed ones who ate tons of junk and never grew an inch, but i'm beginning to see that i'm not. there's REAL FAT layering on my body, in bad places. so anyway, i was starving when i woke up and i went down to get some food and bubble tea. (cravings. tsk tsk.) half way buying, the van came to pick me up for teens club. and off i went.

after teens, had lunch at SUPER-BORING SUN PLAZA. sorry lah guys, i sorta decided on the place right? i just needed ACon. :D seriously the heat's killing me these days. edward joined us, and i tell you he's super talkative and has that sec-1 humor. HAH, it's nice having him around. join us every week ah, ed. then we shall eat in sembawang for ever. ;))

choir was alright. i had good voice in the beginning but it wore off quickly. i really regret not taking more care of my voice when i was younger. i sorta wrecked my throat. so sad. now i can't reach those high notes like i used to! i'm in a julie andrews mood thinking about it...

finishing up an order of cards that i've delayed for so long. hope to deliver them via timlow-mail tomorrow. OH yah, i'm teaching chapel tomorrow too! i still get jittery okay.

fighting~

IT

IS

SO

HOT

TODAY

... and yesterday too. man, not nice leh. that, coupled with nasty hormones, is making my face turn into a zit farm again! ARRG. angry red volcanoes (AHA, exaggeration) popping out. yes, people who meet me.. you will see. =(

mommy was given MC for yesterday and today, so we went to see gran this morning. at first she seemed alright, but then she began puking and stuff, but at least her fever was down. we (mom, dad, me, aunt) left shortly after she went in for dialysis. after lunch mom and i went for a walk at AMK hub, and i was buying a present for tim when mommy got a call from the hospital saying that gran's arm-- the part used for dialysis-- was infected, causing her sky high fever attacks, and they couldn't go through with dialysis cause the infection could get into her bloodstream if they needle her. UM, anyway she's in SGH again. temporary ward 54D, room 11 bed 1. cut short our shopping trip and met up with daddy to go home. so, the granny episode is not over yet.

managed to get tim's birthday present. it's simple and he already has a lot of them, but it's nice. also bought a pair of heels, some jap brand, at a super slashed price. two of the four things i planned to buy. oh well. =)

aunt invited me to a PERANAKAN CONCERT, or play, or something like that. WHOO~~ i was saying, too bad i don't have my own suit of baju kebaya. =(

really appreciate those people who visited gran on sunday, that was very thoughtful of you all! gran's fever went up and down. we got to see that when dad, mom and i went to see her yesterday. one moment she's curled up and shivering, the next she can sit up and talk. it's scary, but thank God the fever's manageable. if it gets out of hand, meaning she doean't respond to the meds there in AMK, then she'll be sent to SGH-- again. she was happy to see people caring for her yesterday. (yes, she loves attention. but who in her shoes wouldn't?) i thought mommy was strong. when gran was really jiatlat and puking and shaking i was going to display some waterworks already, but mommy seemed fine. she just kept sponging her. :)

went home and waited for 10pm, when arts central was showing a movie i've been wanting to watch for AGES. i knew about it before, and the vocal teacher that taught our choir recommended it too. found out about the singer, jean-baptiste maunier, while searching youtube. anyway, the film is called les choristes and it's nice.

mommy at SGH getting her ear checked out now. may be a number of things, but we'll see. daddy's accompanying her.

today was an average saturday, teens-lunch-choir-home day. there's nothing much to tell..

just got news that gran is now running a HIGH fever, 39+, which probably feels more than horrible. please keep her in your prayers. heard something about low oxygen levels and stuff too. hope she will be fine. mama fighting~

brain tired now. goodnight people.

been thinking about december's church camp. seriously looking forward to it, cause i realized it'll be the only time in this entire year when i'll get to go overseas. does malaysia count as overseas? over a tiny sea. no travelling for me this year. um, sad. especially since year 16 is supposed to be exciting and fun and whatever else it's made up to be. but anyways, at least there's still church camp.

yesterday gran was running a fever. a day or two before that she told us she had problems breathing all of a sudden, but the docs said all seemed fine so they would just observe her. i hope nothing's wrong.

mom and dad went to the polyclinic on wednesday. mom has some deafness in her ear (!!!!) and dad needed to go for a blood test, liver stuff. age really is a bugger...

i'm SO SAD for bran! his entire upper row of teeth are shaky and one already dropped out, who knows when! it's really dawning (more like crashing) upon me that bran won't last forever, and that is such a depressing thought. he's only, what, 6? and he's becoming a boh gey, ah pek dog! *sniffs* age REALLY is a bugger. when bran dies, i don't think i'll be able to take it as containedly (i made that word up) as jake. i'll be crying all over the place.

took this at sheng siong. you should NEVER stack damage. it just comes back to you in the end!wanna remove your iris, lip, or eye?

KY learning to cycle from a person (me) who hardly knows how to cycle. gagaga~

sent bran to the groomers and he's BOTAK AGAIN!

prayer retreat was good! more tiring than i expected, but still good. the lessons were on faith, cause prayer requires faith. there was just a small group of us who stayed over.

waited for the van for quite some time at pasir ris mrt. ended up wandering around the mall abit before slumping down on some benches inside, tim, me and geil. van picked us up and we booked into the chalet, got settled into our rooms, had a short word time, then went to buy stuff for the stay. had dinner out and went back for another word time and prayer before going to bed. didn't exactly sleep well, but compared to the other campers i think we got the most sleep.

woke up at 6 the next day. i was bunking with tim. prayed after the message and had breakfast. then morning worship. then we prayed again? i can't remember. anyway it was free time all the way after that, so we went cycling. i accompanied KY since she and i couldn't really cycle, and she rented a bike to learn. (lol) went back to the bungalow a few hours later to bathe and eat dinner, then had evening worship and went to bed. tim went back home cause he was coming down with something. this time the rooms were taken by some families, so the girls bunked in the hall together.

started worship at the same time, 6:30, the next morning. all of us were seriously sleepy. had breakfast and packed up to go home. BJ sent us back.

the end! not exactly eventful or fun, but a good time to remember the importance of prayer. there're pics but they're not with me. i'll post them when i get them.

UMM, i'm going for the ABM retreat later! so i thought i'd blog a little before leaving my lovely computer for a few days.

thank God i did well for my maths test. and i completed the calligraphy work that i esteemed impossible yesterday! (almost broke my fingers trying to finish that. tsk.) may post up pics of my sweat and blood on the art blog.

gran has put on WEIGHT, like obviously. i guess that's a good thing. =)

been watching this kr show called infinity challenge (dramas are boring. variety shows are more worth the time!) and it's FUNNY. the show gets six 'misfits' to do tasks and missions, and the humor feeds off their quirks. :D yesterday i was watching an episode where they went to korea's english town where everyone is forced to speak whatever english you know, and it was hilarious, i was laughing out loud with my head phones on at my comp. parents walked pass my room shaking their heads and imitating me. HEH.

gonna pack for the retreat.

iknowiknow i'm so guilty of neglecting my blog. :( trying to get back to that daily-posting habit.

i'm really thinking about learning/studying korean. alright, i know everyone's like shaking their heads thinking i'm one of those korean-crazed aunties/teenagers that's swept away with the flow of the stupid kwave. i'm not ohkay! the kwave just introduced this culture to me and i now find it interesting, if may phrase it that way. X) no, i'm not like those obsessed fans who would go for fan meetings or autograph sessions or sleep on a pillow with rain's face on it or wear socks with pictures of BYJ printed on them, (the socks one is scary. like a hidden fetish. imagine a market aunty pulling off her shoe to reveal BYJ's face! ackk!) nor do i drown myself in the ringing soundtrack of the current in-drama. please don't ever picture me as any of the above, thank you very much.
back to the learning korean thing. anyone wanna learn too? it's nicer to have a buddy. the more the merrier. i think i'll have an easy time cause i've learned BY MYSELF how to read (muahaha. internet jjang!) and i realized it's 10 times easier than chinese and 100000 times easier than french. tell me if you wanna learn too! even if it's just for fun, like a one month thing. *teeth-smile*

oh yes, did i ever mention i quit greek? one year of insanity (french) is enough for me. i got stuck at the second volume of greek and seriously got mad, mostly at my tiny brain for spitting all i want to learn out. replaced it with some college old testament survey which supposedly gets more difficult towards the end of the course, but hey it's anytime closer to home for me than GREEK. a lesson for my future decision making: avoid mediterranean languages written in squiggly form. AHA, no lah, i learned not to overestimate myself. i thought after french nothing was impossible, but whatever, greek's worse.

i am not very smart. art's just my thing. my only thing! *cries*

maths test tomorrow. whaiting!

Good Rainy Afternoon, Everybody...
last week was a normal boring week so i didn't really bother to post anything. having a bad sore throat now (depressed) and my head feels oozy and my neck feels like it's been used as a punching bag. ah, the flu bug. to sum up the feeling, it's like i've been trampled over by alot of people.

yesterday ABM celebrated its 5th birthday! whoo~ was glad to see daphne and CY and so many people there. i actually was feeling kind of sick so that sorta blocked my gladness from showing on my face. sorry if i looked grumpy, didn't mean it. i wore my funny orange batik dress which made me look old, but i don't mind. :) took some pics while waiting to go home.

omo, sarang heh~

haha, geil's dad.

today some new teens came for teens club, which was very refreshing. thank God!

after teens club and choir i met mommy at yishun and went to see MAMA! (gran) she looks good. =) she ate her dinner well and we brought her down for a walk around the hospital. gave the cafeteria food a try (it's not bad!) and took pictures. she REALLY likes taking pictures, oddly. while we were snapping away isa came, to gran's delight. after some time we brought her back up to watch some TV, then we tucked her in at bed time. isa drove us back (thanks isa) and now i'm pretty tired. pics of the nonyas~

i was laughing so hard cause mommy was taking this photo and signaled with her hands -1,2, then mama shouted "CHEE!"

i think we look like monkeys.

brought gran down to the 'kopitiam' at GH. we asked her if she wanted something light. dessert? popiah? then suddenly she said, YONG TAO FU! wah. after she ate her diarrhea started again and she got really upset. before that she was in a jolly good mood. *hais..* today she's moved to AMK!

some pics of sher's sweet sixteenth. i wish i had eaten more..

what's up with my hair. why i always end up so un-glam one.

Tim, what's with the pose??

after trying to dunk her in so many times...

see i ready to push her in already!

HAHA i poured water on her head while she was posing, but the camera didn't catch it! wasted...

look at all those hands ready to embed her face into the cake. tsk tsk tsk.

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today:
pretty tired now, just came back from visiting gran. she was alright but got a little depressed because of her diarrhea. =( mommy changed her pampers 3 times!! it stank real bad. nurses are wonderwomen. changing pampers no joke one okay! oh, gran didn't get to move to AMK on friday cause her blood potassium level's too high so got risk of HEART ATTACK!~ but now it's normal so she's moving tomorrow. thank GOD.

yesterday:
was real depressed about my skin so mom brought me to the docs to get some real meds. i wanted some oral medication cause it's really strong and works quick, but the doc said my face isn't that bad and some topical antibiotic gels would do. at least the doc wasn't just interested in selling the most expensive stuff lah, caring doctor. he was so long winded explaining about all the different options. my acne is a hormonal thing so it flares up regularly, if you know what i mean. it's not that i'm unhygienic or anything, no okay! haha. anyway, gonna apply me meds religiously and hope for good results.
after going to the doctor in the morning i had breakfast with mommy, a rare event. she stuffed me with half-boiled eggs and bread. went to telipok for teens club, then went for choir.

the rainy weather, is awesome.

had some fun fun at sher's birthday celebration on sunday. it was raining and raining, and it was freezing at my place when i left the house, but thank God the rain stopped just for sher. the field at sembawang park wasn't even muddy or anything. went to print some photos for sher, then waited for pickup at the mrt station. met aunty joanna and her girls at the bus stop waiting there too. we didn't recognize each other at first, funny.
so anyway, we reached the park first and helped set up the grrand bbq area while uncle CJ and the boys went to bring MORE chairs and stuff and fetch MORE people. a while later everyone arrived and we went to play games. frisbee. again. sighs. and captain's ball. again too. double sighs. was hoping for some funny icebreakers or something, you know, the kind that make you laugh and laugh. (i doubt you are getting what i mean.) i was already really tired from the past days' lack of sleep so i just ran around wobbling, a bit like a drunk, screaming more than playing. when did i start to scream so much? i scream when i get the ball, i scream when someone else gets the ball, i scream when someone drops the ball. i apologize to everyone who has gone partially deaf because of me. sorry sorry.
after games we ate, after eating we tried to throw sher into the sea. (sea sounds more dramatic than water.) the people carrying her kept throwing her in legs first, so, shil peh. on our last try me and another girl were supposed to push her in baptismal style, on her shoulders, but that girl last minute no strength so i ended up falling into the water WITH sher. spent the night trying to dry off my shorts.
took lots of pics, then went home. reached back around 9. came home and K.O.-ed.

i think i have insomnia. have a harrrrd time falling asleep nowadays. =(

gran gonna move to AMK rehab center on friday. =)

just came back from hospital. yesterday and today dad and i went at around 5 (reach).

yesterday:
we brought chicken soup for gran. she asked for it. nothing herbal, just potatoes and stuff. she ate alot! later her porridge came for dinner, but she said she was too full. after a while she was curious and asked me to let her taste it, and she ended up eating it (just some, but still). haha, was glad she ate well. after a few minutes she was all chatty and jokey. i brought my sketch book and tried to draw her, just to cheer her up. took pictures and showed them to her. technology confounds her. wah, a few times i really was holding back my tears while i was watching her! i control okay. just, alot of thoughts passed by me, emo lar. i can usually take alot of sad things without shedding a tear, but when it comes to old people and children i have a soft spot. was blinking and blinking like crazy-spastic person. (lol). listened to her talk about all sorts of things.. mostly gossiping about other patients. (ha) thank God, she has nice neighbours. they like her so much cause she's "cute and quiet". isa came and brought the promised siew mai for gran. then mom and tim came after work. after some time isa went home and we had dinner. went back to the ward to tuck gran in and left after 8. snapshots yesterday:

yum yum. chicken soup 'jjang'! (best!)

milk before bed. :)

today:
daddy brought the potent pig's stomach soup that gran ordered yesterday. he dumped in lots of pepper but gran said it wasn't enough. (WAH..) we grabbed some chicken pies from cheers on the way to her block cause we were hungry. the popo beside gran recognizes us instantly now. when i walked into the ward she wanted to shout hello, but i put my finger to my mouth signaling for her to be quiet first. then i walked pass my gran with my head down. "EHH!!!" she screamed with her eyes wide open! so funny. me and the popo laughed at her. gran ate the WHOLE TUMBLER-THING of soup! all the ginko nuts and whatever. she happily rejected the porridge provided right after that. oh, she very funny lah. she took the french loaf my uncle bought for her and broke it up and mixed it in the soup, like western style. later she asked me, "eh. you got bring the thing to take picture?" HAHA, she acts shy but she loves taking pictures okay. took more pics of her and let her see them. " yeeee hiao ah loo~" she exclaimed. she continued chatting and telling funny stories (mostly made up lah), then i showed her some vids of bran, or van as she calls him. let her inspect my bag too.. when she saw my make up pouch she made a big fuss. THEN she got hold of my sunglasses. i wore them and she laughed and laughed, then she wanted to wear them! told her to pose for me and she said OKAY! HAHAHA~ after all that she was quite lifted in spirits, so, thank God. mom came after work again. after a while we went to eat, then tucked gran in and left at around 9. pics from today:

obsessed with my phone-cam. AH mama chantek!

ISABELLA!! she love yoo too!!

WAH mama cool ah! preety ah! ai yuuuuuu~

thanks to everyone who's come so far. she really wants to see people and feel loved and wanted. if you have time, feel very free to drop by! i think she's getting better fast, now with her usual resolve kicking back in. in the beginning of the week she was saying funny things like going back to heaven and stuff, but i think the visits put away those thoughts. maybe God gave me this funny face so i could make her happy! anyway, thanks to everyone who's been praying for her too! doesn't she look better? :)

i really hope she bounces back like she always has. mama fighting!

on saturday mom and tim and i went to the hospital. tim had some checkup to do for his eyes. family has history of glaucoma. the eye center is very near SGH so, i tagged along to go see her after the checkup. at the eye center we met up with our mom's colleague who used to work there. tim and i were joking away.. kids central was on and we were reminded of our pokemon days. suddenly this spinning pikachu came up on the screen sending me into a frenzy of laughter. tim was closing his eyes for the eyedrops to set in but he couldn't help opening them after hearing my gagging! he ended up gagging along. after that he was trying to recall the name of a show with dakota fanning in it and he was describing it to me with his eyes closed.
T: you know.. dakota fanning.. the alien show.. what's the title...
A: war of the worlds? what?
T: no no another one.. the mini series one..
A: umm... (starts to walk away from seat quietly.)
T: (blabbers on to empty seat in front of eyerybody)
A: (gagging)
Mom: where you going? (to agnes)
A: SSSHHHHHH!!! (all sorts of hand signals.)
T: *blah blah*... why so quiet? (opens eyes; embarrassed face; turns to me with smoke coming out of his ears.)

he spent the next minute whacking and scolding me. but it was worth it. AHA!

after a while we figured we should go see gran while waiting for tim's eyedrop thing to work. she was having dialysis so we went there and found jamie at her side. the only thing jamie understood all that while was that "... my girl, missy. my boy, taxi!" meaning my mom was a nurse and my uncle was a taxi driver. got action one, hilarious. jamie stayed with us for quite a while. then isa came after she left. gran recognized isa! =) spent time listening to her woes.. found out she has a painful lump on her right side.. around her chest area. waiting for docs to check out what in the world it is. also, docs told my mom that gran CANNOT GO FOR SURGERY because her heart won't take it. now the plan is heavy painkillers and therapy? i'm not sure. she'll probably stay for another week or so.

yesterday i was seriously going to go see gran but my mom told me to go home and SLEEP because i've been kinda worried and i didn't really get any sleep on friday and saturday nights. the back of my head felt like there were rocks weighing it down.. so, i gave it a pass. slpt for a longg time at home. feeling okay now.

dad went to visit gran, and is bringing ah mah along cause she wanted to go. i feel like going too.

pics!
waiting game.

abducted by aliens! this machine toughes your eyeball. ACK!

painful eyedrops.

yes, close your eyes.

his specs shrink the eyes. goodness, tim is prettier than me. TSKK!

gran and isa.

mom wiping her back.

mommy went to the hospital to talk to the doctor today about by gran. seems like she's gonna need surgery to get a bionic leg. (i'm not good at making medical things sound sensible, excuse me. ha~) so, it's not her hip that's fractured, it's her femur. (spelling?) i was quite surprised that there really was a fracture cause i figured if she could walk around for a few days with the injury it shouldn't be anything that serious, but what do you know, thus is the threshold of pain of an old woman who shuns the hospital. anyway, gran is alright other than the fact that she can't move around and she's afraid of operations. thanks for the thoughts and the prayers and the messages everyboday, we feel the love. <3

it seems sick week has not passed yet. (sad) this time it's granny. she fell at around 6 something AM on saturday. i was sleeping in the hall so i heard her fall. um, anyway long story short, she was in GRRREAT pain last night, at her left hip, so my parents carried her down in her wheelchair and sent her to SGH by cab. she must've looked so grand in her sedan-like chair. that was around 9pm. she got some xrays done amongst other tests, and then was warded. parents came home at 2+ AM. poor souls were exhausted, and mom didn't go to work today. they went to see her just now.

brain not really working. since that last sentence i've been sitting here for like, 10 mins staring into the screen. i shall go do something more constructive.

I AM RECOVEREDDDDDD! well, in the process, but i'm rejoicing exceedingly because my dear throat is pain freeee! i really appreciate and will take care of my good, healthy throat now. umm, i'm still coughing up phlegm-balls but that still beats throat boils, so, thank God people! it is good to be healthy.

woke up today and my dad told me to stay home instead of going to church cause i hardly slept during the night. both of us were coughing that itchy, unstoppable headache-causing cough the entire night through.. but i didn't really feel tired, so i decided to go. i told dad and mom not to go.. and daddy stumbled back into his bed mumbling, "... yah, i cannot make it one... * zzzzzzz *." haha. mommy was tired to cause daddy woke her up with his coughing. poor things..

was alright at church. i was well prepared with my jacket! had one nasty cough attack which made me listen to the sermon from behind the curtain, but i ended up dozing off while leaning on the notice board. (AIYOYOOOOH, tsk. embarrassingahhhh~) to everyone who passed by and laughed at me, i didn't do it purposely okay. blame it on the medicine. anyways, had to cancel meeting with sher. (i'm so sad about that..) came back for lunch. napped for very long and enjoyed my last day of lelexation before i gotta busy with school work tomorrow, NOOOOOOOOH!

thank you everybody, nice people, for your KIIIIND words of love. i think they helped me get better faster. positive energy lah, you know? (pfft)

jacob is in the jungles of tekong now, GAH ! jacob fighting!

happy belated birthday daphne! i hope you got my card.

AHJAH~

now daddy's down. pfft.. chain chain chainnnn~ chain of sick people! (the.. song.. nevermind.) got up at dunno what time today and found daddy zee-ing soundly. made breakfast for granny and me and cleaned up the house. i keep going to the mirror to see my throat-boils. (that's what i shall call them.) there's one on the right side of my poor throat that hurts the most, but generally i'm feeling better! now is the purging stage, where the yucky phlegm and other dead germs come out. yeah~

i hope i get totally well by sunday. i have really loud, uncontrollable cough spasms. can't imagine myself all nicely dressed and coughing and tearing like a mad person, tsk, no no cannot.

thanks for your cheers people! wah, it feels good to be loved. :D

went to the polyclinic today and waited for like forever (i know, that's just how it is there.). i didn't bounce back from my flu as i usually do within two or three days, but instead it got worse. maybe it's a sign of age. *gasps* anyway the main problem is my throat which is affecting my entire head. self-medicated for the past few days but it didn't work. there's pus in my throat, like, big boils or ulcers that HURT LIKE WHAT LAH, and i can't sleep because it's so painfullllll. so that affected my nose and ears and all, and my voice sounds really funny, like it's floating at the top of my head. (the nasallest of nasal.) AH this is the worst flu ever! pus in my throat leh, PUS! tim got a shock when he saw it. mom got mad when i told her i thought i had throat cancer. (haha. parents hate those jokes.) got my antibiotics and a whole bag of other meds, so wish me a quick recovery! for now i shall have to put up with the pain. :(

granny is singing. i haven't been bothered by her in the night lately because i've been CAMPING outside for the past week! it's so nice sleeping in the hall. so spacious compared to my wobbly loft bed.

I CAUGHT THE FLUUUUUUUUUUUU, noooooooooo! i feel horrible today. feel like there's a big wound in my throat and a medicine ball in my head. my nose is all clogged with grosse stuff too. yep, it's the flu.

gonna go eat now.

aw, roy carrying micah. she's a big bright baby with three little teeth now. she'll grow up with this karate bodyguard by her side. :)marc wearing roy's shoes. tsk, funny lah. they looked much more ridiculous in real life than in the pic. ha~

school school work work. aza!

tim and mom have been sick. tim caught the flu and has been resting since thursday, mom had bad migrane since thursday but only took friday MC. they're much better now though. :)

today i went for teens club all alonely. the lesson was KEEP THYSELF PURE. valuable lesson, hard lesson too. thank God for BJ who emphasizes these important principles, lesson after lesson, sin sanctification heart issues. it's true, everything begins in the heart. i think some of us make the mistake of conforming outwardly but still holding on to our own views. guess that's missing the point. anyways BJ touched a littttle on BGR here and there, so i think we were all paying closer attention than usual. hee..
went to chongpang for lunch with the alamons and kahyue, but KY da bao-ed home for her family. gave up on our planned ice kachang because we were too full. walked around and i bought some stuff for my cards.
choir today was so FUNNY (not normal) ! some of us were in the laughing mood. apparently my face makes people laugh. (tsk) haha~ i like choir to be like that. =)

geil i will pay you back for the IL tea tomorrow. remind me pls!

sewed a singlet for bran today! i'm bad at sewing because i wanna do it really fast so it's half torn already. partially because bran started chewing it in hate after i took it off of him. hah.

VBS! my class photo. i don't look like a teacher do i? :(

korean thirsty hippo.

*munch munch*

i love chocopie~

steamboat after shopping. daddy bought the induction heater thing cause it saves money. and it's safer.

this was on labor day! bunch of ninjas. or breakdancers.

while i was doing my school work today my mom saw an ad in the papers about becoming a language teacher for special needs kids. i remember aunty susan (sher's mom) telling me once that i could be a speech therapist. wonder why i've never really thought about studying that. taking it into serious consideration now. =) you could say i've been finding an alternative to studying art. somehow i just don't think that's all i'm meant to do, but that's just what i'm good at and what i reallly enjoy. this whole future, next-phase-of-life thing is pretty confusing and quite scary, but anyway, i'm just praying about it. everybody's kicking up a big fuss about my ambition and plans. some people believe in me and others are just blatantly skeptical (about whether i can make it academically and socially).

people's view of me can be really frustrating sometimes. they see me and treat me like a really swa ku person who "doesn't know what real life is like" and "is not well-rounded". yes, some people have said that to my face. got alot more remarks also lah.. too many to say. fortunately, unlike ALOT of other homeschoolers, i have decided not to feed the urge to prove myself, which is why when i get remarks like that i just smile. i don't have to prove myself cool or street-wise. that's kind of egoistic. haha. when i was youngER i did lah, must make myself look athletic (which is why i started the whole stupid muscle thing and now my arms are huge) and i must be very charismatic and i must talk with the teen twang and must do this and that. thank God lah, i grew up a little. :D i find it easier to be myself now, and i like having the good girl aura.

anyway, how'd i veer to such a weird subject? i'm considering studying something to do with special needs kids. :) that's all i originally wanted to say. heh.

my, like, 7th journal is finishing (pages) and i'm gonna get a new one. my journal very funny one.. it's like a multipurpose book. i write everything in it, study notes, daily thoughts, angry letters, sermon notes, art ideas, (dumb) poems, short stories, etc, so it's a super top secret book, cause it's basically my brain in ink on paper. but now i'm gonna compile all my poems in one book. maybe it'd be finished by the time i'm.. 80. or 90. HAH.

i'm saving up for korean lessons. KEE!

we had a celebratory dinner just now, dad and mom's b-day's combined. this time we used two table stovie things! one for soup and the other for frying. parents bought like, a truckload of food back from NTUC. yummy stuff! (got sushi also leh, ayeeee~) ^^ i stuffed myself.

HAPPY BIRFDAY AH BEAR!

been into this show called two days one night that I FIND super fun to watch. (other people don't find it fun, but whatever.) TWO DAYS ONE NIGHT! yaaaaaaaaaaah.

i know i haven't been blogging much lately, well nothing much has been happening! usual week, although mom's home. she took two weeks leave, one more week to go. anyway my parents were pretty busy running to hospital to see isa and my uncle. i just stayed home and did my work. flunked a test and passed another. =\

on thursday mommy and i went a'shopping after i finished my school (early!). NOVENA SQUARE ! we went there mainly to see that 'korean floor', but we covered the entire mall. :D mom finally got to buy clothes from this shop she'd been eyeing on called FOND.. some sweet clothes there. and come on, it's the best time to shop. GREAT s'pore sale leh~ anyways, i got two nice dresses and a top which has had some mixed reviews, e.g. pajamas, sweater, jacket, etc. (lol, pajamas!!) one dress i got was totally a shocker -- $19 only! and it looks so niiiiiiiiiiiiiice lah. i was actually waiting for mom who was trying something and i saw it in a pile of OFFERed clothes, just pulled it out to try for fun but when i tried it it was too sweet to leave behind!
sales lady: wow that looks nice! (probably regretting setting the price so low.)
mom: ya nice! okay lah you change back and think whether you wanna buy it anot.
agnes: i think no need to think already. hahaha.
when we finally got to the korean floor i went bersek for some reason. no lah, we went into this korean mart and i just found it so cool, cause everything was in korean and the people were talking in korean. like LITTLE KOREA. and i saw things i'd seen on tv before in dramas. cool what, not cool meh? TSK. bought some bulgogi and kimchi and CHOCOPIE and other stuff. after alot more walking we came home and ate the bulgogi for dinner. dad set up the stove thing on the table. so cooooooool. ^^

went for teens club on sat and some new guy called alvin came. :) the lesson was really appropriate-- ecclesiastes 11:9,10 ; 12:1. i've heard many messages on that passage before, but it's always a good reminder. had another cup noodle picnic with the alamon duo and stayed for choir. went back home after that and met bro mike and sis joyce along the way. they're so stylo with their shades.
was DADDY'S B'DAY too! so we had a nice dinner downstairs and i gave him a nice big card. :)

went out with raye after church last sunday. ^^ she treated me to lunch since she owes me a bankload of money. (i've been paying for small things all these years. not that she took a big loan from me or anything. it just adds up. she feels bad about it.) we wanna learn korean at the end of the year, hahah.

vbs outing was last sat too. my shoulders are still aching from carrying the buckets of water, ALTHO i only walked a few meters before help came. on sat evening my shoulders were swollen, especially the right one, and i looked like the hulk. and no, i didn't grow any tanner after all that running in the sun. not even a shade down. i am bound to be a pale teochew-perenakan all my life. the only time a was tan was after that kayaking course, but after all the skin peeled off i was white as ever. =\
thank God for the children that came for the outing, and on sunday too.

PLEASE PRAY FOR ISA, that her hand will be okay and her fingers will heal, most of all that she'll be strong. story in short: she gotta bad cut on left index finger, went to doctor's, got it stitched. but it got infected real bad and swelled up and turned brown so she went to hospital. she went for review and had to be warded. going for surgery . keep her in your mind and prayers!

met raye and sher yesterday ! boy i miss them so much. note present tense. raye's hair is so long, sher cut hair. i think we've all grown a LITTLE fatter. oh speaking of fat, i lost a kg. stress la. (heee) we all ah, really got some communication probs. they say library, then when i got to the library and waited for like 5 mins nobody showed up. so i called raye and she told me they were at popular. -_-" sher was buying something before she WENT HOME, so i only got to see her for a few minutes. spent the rest of the evening with raye trying to study at the library. we shared dinner and went home at 8+ like good little girls. :)

today's not really a good day for me. 90% bad. i wish i could just take an airplane and fly off to somewhere fun and forget my daily routine. not forever, just a while, like a break.

bran's botak! it's been a while actually. his fur's longer now.

on the vbs bus going home sweet home. couldn't resist a pic with my fellow rubber-face. we are clowns by nature.

pic of a pic of church camp last year! i can be nicknamed snow white. or ghost. -_-"

TEA PARTYYY~

art blog updato - go see see.

my tummy's horrible today. aye, thanks to everyone for the cheers and encouragements. (awww.) thank you lah. :)

went for the tea party/ potluck lunch at carol's yesterday. met some mbc ladies and got to spend some time with sher.

i have put drawing and painting on hold for a while. not a long while, just a while. mommy's taken leave for the end of the month, two weeks or something. =D too bad we can't go on a trip though. i really wanna go on a roadtrip. TIM FASTER LEARN TO DRIVEEE !

JX picked up his cards today. haven't seen him in a LONG while. thanks uncle!

did some school work just now. going to carol's house later for some tea thing. :) the weather's been crazy lately huh? haha, i LOVE the storms. more storms please! ^^

have a niiiiiiiiiiice day everybody.

some verses to remember from bible reading today. :)
Proverbs 11:5-6 The righteousness of the perfect shall direct his way: but the wicked shall fall by his own wickedness. The righteousness of the upright shall deliver them: but transgressors shall be taken in their own naughtiness.

i'm starting to feel the frustration of taking care of my grandma again. everytime she comes back she's a bit less able. her fingers are wearing out now so she can't do alot of small stuff like spreading butter or buttoning her shirt or opening bottles or even holding her cup properly. so imagine me, stressing over my school work and trying to get dumb housework finished before my dad gets back from the market, panicking at her every scream of my name and rushing to her to do stuff like that. if it's a cup situation then it means she spilled something all over. when she calls me she'll scream " ANNAAAAA!!!!" like something really bad happened. my whole room is filled with sloans fumes and there is oil all over the floor. yes, i'm not really enjoying it. praying for, like, a supernatural patient spirit. as is the commandment, i'm finding for things to give thanks for. firstly, that there are no diapers YET, and secondly that she hasn't turned nocturnal YET. :)
a point of clarification, i don't want my grandma to go anywhere else. she's so happy here. i want to take care of her. it's just hard.

AZA !

VBS HAS JUST PASSED! VBSes get better by the year for me, in that i'm learning more precious lessons and helping more precious kids. really thank God for all that went on.

i have emerged encouraged. (picturizing me standing on cliff looking at setting sun with wind blowing through my hair) nah that's just me being emo.

i taught the lesson on the first day. was nervous preparing but as the day came i was cool. (rrrright) the numbers comforted me when i was assured that i wouldn't be trampled over by the usual 30 kids in that particular class. we had less than 20 this year. anyway, i brought my illustrations and prayed with the rest and braced myself for little monsters. at the reception table the kids looked at me funny, the boys were blur and the girls were shy. anytime better than monsters, i know. i introduced myself as teacher agnes in respect for the filippinos and other foreigners there but in the end they all called me jie jie agnes, regardless of race. tried to teach them a new icebreaker but they were all so shy and lethargic that my attempts to try and hype them up were quite futile. through the lesson they kinda listened but i think they were bored. i felt like my throat had been rubbed down by sandpaper by the end of the lesson. tried to be a good and confident teacher. thank God for felicia and sis. maria who are more experienced. games were funny. the teen helpers joined in and played for the teams too. played obstacle course and captain's ball. when there are pri.1-3 girls around, captain's ball sounds like rain's fan meeting. crazy screaming and waving of hands and crowding around. the rain broke up the fan meeting. followed my dad sending all the kids back and came home.

on friday isa drove us there. yunli came to rescue the class from my boring icebreakers! she couldn't make it on the first day cause of some compulsory workshop, but she was the head teacher of our class. so she came and it was her turn to teach, so geil and i relak relak shake leg abit more. the kids were 10 times friendlier and cuter. they tried their best to pay attention during the lesson. they're cutest during refreshments and games! and when i lead in prayer for the food and watch them all close their eyes and fold their hands, i felt this great responsibility on my shoulders-- they are following my example. what a sobering thought. anyway, we played the amazing race and dog and bone. my dad said he saw me running with the kids like a mad person. the kids! they're so disorganized! they read the clue, then all zhao all over the place. i taught them how to stop and think, then decide together. i can imagine pri5 me being one of the kids who zhao all over. i remembered myself playing the first amazing race ever organized in vbs history. so nostalgic hor? pfft. back to the story, at the end of the day i was still energetic, and yunli stared at me and asked, "not tired meh?" i wondered at myself too. i guess i was just so happy that the kids were responding so well that i didn't register my fatigue. UNTIL i went home. was watching TV one minute and lying on the sofa the next. woke up and told my parents," wah, i suddenly battery flat." ate dinner got myself more awake by eating ramen after that, then used all my energy to finish up the ppt lesson for the next day.

woke up later than usual and met isa at yishun mrt to wait very very long for a cab. was looking forward to meeting the children, and praying that God would miraculously use me to teach a good lesson. yunli helped me improve my lousy ppt presentation. kids flooded in, all hyped up about the water games to come. the lesson went smoooothly! they answered the questions very well and i was so happy. i was even happier when alot of them wanted to come to church the next day, and to the outing a few weeks from now. for games they played something to do with drinking coke till their stomachs burst open, but i was busy packing up the classroom to shift the stuff back to church, so i didn't catch that supposedly very funny part. (sad) then the traditional waterbombs was played! i was a mummy, the sacrifice who gets wettest. they wrapped me up in toilet paper, the whole deal. it was ridiculously funny lah, the team i was in. blur and loud and only know how to complain. when it came to free for all, the kids went bersek. i was not totally wet until JACOB LOW AND ROY ALAMON DECIDED TO THROW BUCKETS OF WATER IN MY DIRECTION. after that i just gave up. too wet to be scared of anymore water, just rambo all the way. the kids enjoyed it so much, altho the games were so simple. thank God. headed to telipok to clean up stuff, then went back home and K.O.ed on the sofa again. granny was home when i came back! she's fussy as ever, same ol' granny.

on sunday kids flooded in. yunli taught the lesson and we all practiced the presentation. they got a little outta hand but yunli and i silenced them with our fierceness, which hadn't ever emerged until that day. i am not to be trifled with when i scold children hokay. keke. later they presented the song and got their prizes, ate lunch and went home. i hope they remember what they learned. went to swensens for dear uncle jacob and stuffed ourselves, then later in the evening went to his place for dinner to see him with hair for the last time. end of sunday~

school continues, i am trying to work hard, do more. whaiting!!
what a long post.

bran bran is BOTAK! and his glorious long tail fur has been shaved off too. he has also fallen in love with the groomer, lulu. AW..

gonna buy vbs stuff with geil later..
AZA!