my new official job is to scratch mama's back. she loves my nails. haha.

she's in pain now so she's crying, but not tantrum-like like previous nights. i'm probably gonna have to stay up to do the thousand turns ritual, so.. i'm trying to stay awake.

mama's dialysis is not working well, and the water in her body is building up day by day. she's bloated and swollen all over. her right arm hurts the most. but, she eats and talks really well which shows that she's not critically weak yet. we're bracing ourselves for a slow deterioration. i have the scenarios sorted out in my mind. =(

mom, dad, me and mama just watched P. ramlee on my comp. apparently they filmed their shows in singapore back in that day. kinda cool...