oooooh ear aching with mama's crying. she's so restless she can't stay seated or lying down for 5 minutes straight. tempted to just leave her in the room to tire herself out but i wanna use my comp so she's shouting at my back.

passed the shift to dad at 3am last night cos couldn't tahan. had to wake up at 8 plus cos she was crying so loud. really difficult taking care of someone with no concept of consideration. you can be right in front of her dying and she would still only think of herself. anyway she wails and shouts night and day especially when she cannot get what she wants. and there is no way of reasoning with her. and she thinks we're evil people and this house is a lousy place to live in. buuuut of course i know her mind is wonky and she's all uncomfortable so it's not her fault.

frankly lah, it seems such a problem solver to stuff her in an old folks home. but then why did we take her out in the first place right? to some extent it's a good thing i didn't know what i was in for in the beginning. if i knew she would be this way i confirm wouldn't have wanted so firmly for her to come live here.

aiyoh.