just came back from seeing gran at the dialysis center. she lost alot of weight. 10kg? she's skinny. the first thing she wailed when she saw me was.." i diarrhea diarrhea!!" =( poor gran.

other than that she was pretty cheerful. bought carrot cake for her since she wanted it. probably will go see her again on saturday. i have the feeling her time is limited.

fighting~

the book and my schoolwork are keeping me busy, thus the absence of new posts. (soz!) so far, i've drawn the second draft for the pictures. gonna pass it to adrian tomorrow so he can show it to the publisher. we're still trying to get the book out by december. yeow~

thank God, korean classes start next week. it got shifted back cause the teacher's schedule got messed up. so i don't have one more thing to clog my mind up-- yet. now there's VBS to plan for too, so, my brain is tired.

goodnight. rarr i'm hungry.

i can't sleep so i decided to blog some poems that i find nice. :D Poems help me fall asleep.

What Can The Dying Man Do?
What can the dying man do for himself?
In the form of a bill, in the shape of a coin.
All he has worked for cannot mend his health;
He has spent his life toiling, only to die.
His family and loved ones he all pushed aside;
He gave up what mattered for money, for pride.
But silver nor gold no power doth hold
When it comes to the wrath of God.
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The Hard Road
Everybody's leaving; the world is in dismay.
Still I am a'cleaving to this Bible, to this way.
Friends bid me farewell as I continue down this road.
Sometimes as I watch them pass I feel this heavy load--

Load of sadness, load of angst.
I know I should be giving thanks.
It's so hard to bear this load, to walk this road.
Like that man of constant sorrow,
I wonder if that bright tomorrow
Will ever come, will ever be.

Yes, God said it
And I believe.
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-Untitled-
Long are the days when people cry
Far are the roads that people trudge
Loud are the whispers of a sigh
Bound are the ones who hold a grudge
Things we have done and can't undo
Hold our minds in stern regret
Wishing we'd thought it through and through
Daring not let ourselves forget
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Oh Souls Around Me
O Sad Soul,
Rejoice evermore.
You are awaiting
For the heaven's more
That was promised you
In the Old Book of Faith.
Gather your patience,
Just a while more wait.

O Doubtful Soul,
Childlike heart all up-grown.
Now for all things
Evidence must be shown.
And if there is none,
Then you will not believe.
To earthly logic
You hang and you cleave.

O Weary soul,
Is this race far too long?
Can't but look back
At the times you were strong.
Out is the fire
That once burned in your eyes.
Winded and wounded,
Know God hears your cries.
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Upon This Train
Today upon this train i sit
Awaiting when i shall return
To my dear husband, 'ma, and kid
And tell them all what I have learned

Upon this train I sing my song
And wonder at the echo's ring
For this train ride must be so long
And I'll be bored if i don't sing

I met some people, kind but grave
Who feared the train would never reach
I could not stand their panicked state
So I got the Reverend to stand and preach

I write to you, dear ones at home
With pen in hand and tear in eye
I miss you so, oh you must know
That you are in this heart of mine

And if I die upon this train
Then I state: I have no regret
For God's own Son for me was slain
And on dear Jesus my mind is set

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the last one is kinda sweet isn't it? can imagine that lady in the train writing. it's a little funny too, the panicked state part.

goodnightey~

RARRRH this month is gonna be exciting. hokay, i wasn't sure whether or not i could spill the beans but adrian said i could --- ADRIAN'S WRITING A KIDS' BOOK! and i'm the illustrator wahhhhh! he's doing it for a project and i get a feeling it's some personal milestone thing too, but anyways, it's too exciting! we're taking it really seriously, it HAS to go through. it should be published in december! just came back from our first meeting where we discussed the shape of the book, tones, drawings, settings, ages, layouts, message of the story, etc. i'm really smiling right now, really. art is the only thing i can be stressed out and happy about at the same time.

now, i have to draw like siao.
5 more days to korean class. asalabeeya~!

the title is
A Very Old Stone
or is it The Very Old Stone..
adrian !

saturday was a little happier than usual for me. after teens club i met up with raye at jurong to SIGN UP FOR KOREAN CLASS AHHHHH! we went to the wrong block first (due to her bad memory) but we managed find the school easily after that. timmy lent me his card to pay first, so brotherly right? anyway, raye and i were on the moon. we've been waiting for this year end for so long. thank God it's working out! i hope i don't mess this opportunity up. =|

after talking for a while she went for job training and i went home. end of happy day. ^^

on sunday nobody sat beside me *CRIES*. geil come back now~! during lunch i was sitting with aunties janet and alice. i think i became an aunty for a while there. geil come back now~!

geil came by our place after i finished my schoolwork yesterday, since we didn't have a proper farewell on sunday. she left this morning for the phils, and i'll only see her IN DECEMBER ACKK~ have a good trip, girl.

after geil left we went to SGH to see gran, and surprisingly she looks much better! (than when she was admitted.) she still can't breathe well but she was stitting up and eating and fairly happy. thank God. :) for those who don't know what's going on with her, um, i think her heart is very weak and she's retaining alot of water which is pressing against her lungs ...... or something like that. anyways, her body is getting weaker every week. she may look livelier on some days but it's only fact that her organs can't really get better from here on.

aza~

HAPPY BIRFDAY GERLYNN DID I SPELL YOUR NAME RIGHT ?
heh~

wasn't really in a blogging mood last week so i didn't post anything up. very brief description of the week:
on monday we all went to the peranakan museum. found out it was open house time now so free free! took quite alot of pics there but they're all with tim.
mom and i went to IMM daiso on tuesday but got a call while shopping halfway saying gran was admitted to GH again because she couldn't breathe. mom and dad rushed down and tim and i went home. (tim and dad were somewhere else in jurong.) dad bought a wheelchair from cash converters for gran so tim and i had to bring that back.
i spent wednesday to friday being down with stomach flu, which i passed on to tim. the end!

my tummy's still in bad shape now. having gastritis (pain!). mom says it happens sometimes after stomach flu because the germs are attacking the stomach wall. she simplifies everything for me. keehee~

AZA AZA FIGHTING!!!!