my goodness. i just watched episode 7 of THREE RIVERS ("the luckiest man") and i am like, tearing up. been watching it on youtube cos i never seem to be able to catch it on SET. too bad the show got canceled. :(

sniff sniff.

heal up quick, jay.

reached SGH near 5 today. got a little drenched a COUPLE OF TIMES on the way there. why did i even bother drying my hair before i went out, tell me ples.

EE (yi yi, my dear aunt) arrived with truckloads of mcdonalds. i ate and fed mama her 'popeye'. she didn't wanna wear her teeth so i had to peel it bit by bit and feed it to her. still, it's good that she ate.

jay's going for wisdom tooth extraction tomorrow AH! take care of yourself. if you need someone to cook porridge for you, you know who to call. (call your mom.) hahahahaha mean aggie.

i have a dinner date with MAMA DEAREST tonight. (you thought who righttt.) my aunt's buying food.. asked if i wanted in or not so of course i said yes. i realize i haven't eaten a burger in AGES because of my braces. the things i have given up for better teeth...

mama said she wanted "popeye" which, i just discovered, means apple pie. (LOL CUTE.)

i'll be giving s. joycelyn's two girls painting and drawing lessons once a week for one month starting this saturday. which would make it like, 5 lessons i think. wonder how it'll be like teaching little girls. less noisy, more fussy? haha, we'll see.

oh, i coincidentally met jia en's parents at SGH on sunday. haven't seen them in 10 years but i could STILL RECOGNIZE THEM. i saw uncle vincent first, then aunty lydia. okay maybe the real reason for my good memory is FB, cos i sorta saw their photos there before. (heh, cheat.) anyway i had a nice chat with them and i really think they are some of the nicest people on the planet.

ag: uncle vincent!
uncle: *turns around*
aunty: *turns around*
ag: i'm agnes... lee... TL and eliz's daughter?
aunty: oh! wah, you look different.
ag: *covers cheeks* of course it's been like 10 years. but i recognize you all. you look the same. ^-^

i was genuinely happy to see them, although i dunno why. maybe it's because i like it when people see how much i've grown and how OKAY i am after finishing homeschooling. you know, that it didn't make me a social misfit as many people falsely prophesied. not them lah, just people.

i go downstairs buy food now lah.

MADE A MINICARD. GUESS WHO IT'S FOR?

i'm making isa's cards now. last batch of 10 (correct?). sorry i've been dragging this out for so long!

feels like i haven't touched my art stuff in a long time. everything's dusty.

apparently mama is in bad shape. mom and dad told me yesterday after coming back from hospital. her arm is ridiculously swollen and she's really weak. i'll go see her tomorrow.

there's a problem with my msn and i can't sign in at all. so it's not that i don't wanna chat alright? just FYI.

:(

DOES ANYONE HAVE ANY IDEA HOW HARD IT IS TO SMILE WITH YOUR MOUTH CLOSED WITH BRACES?

*screams!*

highlight of december = removing braces.

yes.

super light lunch at astons with my bros~ i just had like, a sidedish and a soup because i had no appetite. oh, jay gave me my belated present all the way from korea WOOTS! will post up pic of it soon. it's a very LOVEly tee shirt. ^-^ THANKYOOMISTERLOW. you jjang!*thumbs up*

on a much sadder note, mama was pretty out of it today. moody and unhappy and physically not doing well too. she didn't wanna talk to me or look at me. she just turned the other way and slept. didn't let me feed her or massage her. i was very sad and felt like crying on the spot. i waited 2 hours to see her. =( so i just sat there until 6.30 and said bye bye. the people around were wondering why she was angry with me. looked like i was a bad child or something. SAD!

sticker i pasted on her tag a few weeks ago was still there. makes her tag different from the rest. :)

from my red notebook:

"maybe it pains you just to see me.
perhaps i disappoint you so.
tell me the reason why you turn away from me please.
it would just help so much to know.

could be you want to hide your weakness,
or that you're just not feeling well.
you close your eyes but you are wide awake and sleepless,
and i just sit there by myself."

dinner at DELI MOROCCAN. a really cozy, laid back place. the food is good and the shop owner lady is super sweet. nice! see the tea, so cool right? THANKSSS (:

i'm in need of perfume. not that i stink okay. i just have no smell? which i find weird. i like walking past people who smell really good and i think i should be one of those people. and if you don't smell of perfume, you just end up smelling like your lunch or dinner by the end of the day. and this paragraph is very random. hmm.

thanks to s. shiow lin for the emails, really appreciate the thoughts!

pretty tired out. stoning with huge goblet of cold water beside me. planning to see mama tomorrow, which is bittersweet cos i originally planned to hang out with sherrrrrrrrr aiyah. another time. i think i should go see mama.

goodnight lah i'm close to being braindead already. but before i totally zonk out i have to clean up my room floor cos bran my beloved dog barfed all over, for some strange reason. thanks ah, bran. tsk.

"eh why liddat"

"ah better. "

nah, lalamon you can rip the pic from here. nighttime shot for our (future) album.

HAHAH, so miss jamie just helped me save some money for now and provided me with a good chunk of book to read. title: JUST FRIENDS. it's a wholesome christian book on BGR so... ya it's wholesome. thanks jamie. we shall meet and discuss when we finish our copies. well me my borrowed one. ;)

with what's going on with me of late and right now (i'm not specifying muahahah.) and with what i've seen in many couples' lives, a phrase sticks to my mind in a mantra kind of way. "attraction is easy, it's loving that's hard." it is so easy to be attracted to someone. i am honestly attracted to people everywhere i turn. here's a guy, oh wow look at that guy (lol). and it is tempting to get a boyfriend based on attraction, which people commonly mistake for love of some sort, but that is often rash and frivolous and for the sake of companionship.
i am willing to wait for the guy i know i'm meant to love (okay, i constantly remind myself to be willing). it's hard because the prospect of a lovey dovey 'relationship' seems delightful, and it sounds plain weird and swa ku to not have had a boyfriend before, but i genuinely think that i will be happier waiting for the guy who is worth my time because he's God's will for me. yeah, i'm trying to keep that in mind and keep my head screwed on tight as i.. face.. different things... LOL i'm trying not to say too much.

you can call me religious, or idealistic, or inexperienced. but please respect my views.

who came up with the idea that love is an emotion?! it's confusing us youngsters to the max. love is 1 corinthians 13.

okay i very lor sor. but hey, it's this mind of mine leh. my mind has recently been filled with this so just bear with it. heh heh heh~

BOOK.
proof that i read. or just that i pose with books.

i want to buy a book called A Friend Like Henry. saw it at popular the other day. but i am as poor as can be so it'll have to wait. at least until i get my tuition pay.

it's about an autistic boy who is given a dog called henry, i think, and how the dog helps him out of his frightfully insensible world.

so i found a good job opening as a therapy aide at the society of moral charities. but i cannot apply until i get my
CERTIFICATIONSSSSSSSSSS.

which is plain frustrating. why did i even bother rushing to find a job when i can't apply for anything? but all in God's good timing i guess. i shall spend my time in the meanwhile drowning in books and writing so i don't feel like i've wasted my time and let my brain cells die out.

i guess this is my only chance at a holiday. and i am dead broke. nice~

my dad happened to see my weight while i was weighing myself before i slept two days ago and he freaked out cos i was 44kg. 1) the scale is wonky, i think. 2) i'd been quite stressed with mama and the job and most of all, with the quarrels with my parents so i lost SOME weight. just, a few kgs. anyway since then my dad's been stuffing me with food and i'm putting it all back on. dunno where it goes, though. i can't really see the difference whether i lose or gain back the 3 or 4 kg. which is a good thing i guess.

come to think of it, i think i've stopped growing taller WHICH IS SO SAD LAH. but it's okay, there's such a thing as platform heels and insoles teeheehee.

i have been staring at my reply to the senior manager of therapy services at AMKH for half an hour.

tee shirt brand threadless is brilliant. some designs are pretty awesome. i was laughing at a design which showed a doughnut eating up little policemen. (!) madly cute.

yah, OKAY, i know i've been putting off writing about my job search for some time and people are trying not to irritate me by asking.

i'm being very picky about it. i want a job that would involve therapy. actually any kind of therapy is fine with me, but of course preferably speech-- my first love. (: i'm being picky 'cos i can afford to be picky for now. my mom has contacts and there's a chance i can get exactly what i want. no doubt a slim chance. so i'm gunning for that now, i mean might as well right? i think i'll give myself another week to see if KKH DCD is for me? if not then i'll look for something else and i would have to stop being picky.

i've just sent out a bunch of emails to hospitals and associations. and re-emailed one of the head people (lol) at KKH.

on a (very random) side note, nice long hair really makes a world of a difference in the way people treat you. really! the other day at SGH, i didn't know it but i was only supposed to be allowed up the block at 5. but at 4:30 i went up to the (very young) policeman guarding the lift lobby entrance...

ag: um, can i go up now?
pol: *looks at my sticker* *looks at my hair* you ah... ... okay lah can.
ag: ?? *walks into lift. looks at sticker which says 5pm. finds it so funny.*

okay lah i genuinely didn't know i was being let in early until i got into the lift. then i was like, no wonder the people at the lobby were a bit flustered when i was going up. hahah. but you know me right? i wouldn't do that kind of thing on purpose. unless it's raining and i seriously need an umbrella. only geil knows what i'm talking about. =D

AsA~!
timmy passed his IPPT! okay, i'm making a big deal out of it. happy mah. :)
timmy hwaiting! hwa jang shil~ (the only korean term he knows. hahah.)

on a less celebratory note, i've been going through another rough patch with my parents. just, differences. it gets quite bad sometimes. sunday night i was really down and i was crying the.. suck in air kind of cry, know what i mean. the jiatlat cry that kids do when they're like 5. but i breathed it off after a long while. woke up the next day with like, no eyes. hahah. a good cry helps alot.

the upgrading works around my place are so irritating. noisy and fumy and not nice.

jay took leave for a few days. enjoy lah, you!

ANYHOW ORIGAMI

mama was very 'chuan' (breathless) so it was hard for her to keep awake and alert.

'plowers' hahah. i drew them like how she used to draw them. when her arthritis hadn't kicked in that much yet and she could still draw.

oh, this is random. another ouch-my-braces-making-my-mouth-ulcer shot. this was.. birthday.

i'm having dinner now. i realize i'm having appetite issues. hmm?
maybe i'm just tired out.


spent a few hours with mama. she kept asking me to stay later and later. so i stayed later and later, haha. she made me do origami lah!

"fold bird. like the one hanging there."
"fold frog."
"fold kacang puteh box!"

been like 10 years since i folded a frog or kacang puteh box. and i have never folded a bird in my lifetime. but i managed to do it somehow. hee~

was reading a book i bought just now after church while patting her. really started to feel sad that she couldn't come home although she wanted to so much.

i have pics but i think i am too tired to post them. maybe next time. tomorrow or something.

CONGRATS to Lalamon. you finally passed after five long years. ^-^

GOOD MOWNING. like the bluff-french guy from alo alo, hahah.

last night at around 1am, a bat flew into my house. (!!!) was freaking out all by my poor self because everyone else was asleep with the doors shut. in the end i just closed my room door also. could hear it crashing into stuff in the living room. tim lim told me to email the NEA, lol.

i think my gastric is making a comeback. feel the pains every now and then, and i get queasy. gonna go guardian get some antacid or something later. SIGH~

tao hway break with geila monster yesterday was great. talked alot. (:

okay i'm off to find myself some breakfast somewhere and leave for teens'.

Mama.

this was... monday. during dialysis.
i'm quite amazed by the amount of blood she has. imagine she's been going through this three times a week for like, i dunno. 15-18 years? ewverytime have to get needled by that STRAW-like needle. *quivers*

this was yesterday.
her hand is not bloated anymore, see? :D

mama watching me while i write.

wonder what God has planned for her, giving her more time here with us. i bet mama wonders the same thing. kudos to her for being such a fighter. oh, i suddenly remember..

mama: kak malam kalau tak boleh tidoh, gua cakap sama Jesus. Jesus, Jesus, tolong, kasih gua tidoh. (when at night i cannot sleep, i tell Jesus. Jesus Jesus, please let me sleep.)

ag: ah, bagus. (ah, good.)

mama: Jesus marah kan gua. (Jesus angry with me.)

ag: tak ada lah! kenapa marah? (no lah! why He angry?)

mama: dia cakap, " apa la lu, malam malam datang kacao gua." ( He say, " what lah you, night time come and disturb me.")

ag: LOL.

mama: ahhahah.

this has to be her... 6th, 7th time being so frighteningly sick and then getting better in hospital? mama jjang.

okay i have just been eaten up by mosquitoes. not fun.

was woken up by an sms this morning. tried to roll around and go back to sleep but i didn't really manage to. spent the morning making inquiries about scholarships and stuff. then i had tao hway and left for hospital to see mama dearest. i had to go earlier than my parents cos i had tuition in the evening, when they would be there.

IJUSTKILLEDAMOSQUITO wow such satisfaction i feel. stomped on the fella. gr~

when i got there, she had just gotten back from dialysis. funny, she was trying to feed herself. so i sat with her and fed her, helped her with her meds. then she spilled her cough syrup and immediately got into a furious rage saying it was my fault. flashbacked to the past when i took care of her and she was like that towards me alot. lol.

spent a few hours with her. helped her turn (no joke leh. must have some skill one. i was lousy at it. looked like i was killing her.) and combed her hair and fed her egg tarts and read the book jamie lent me and did some writing and talked to the physiotherapist and left. i had to go cos of tuition, but nomatter how i tried to explain tuition to her she didn't get it (deaf mah.) so i just told her i was meeting a friend.

mama: lu mia kawan. jantan ka prompuan? (your friend. guy friend or girl friend?)
ag: um, *how to ans her!* hee hee hee.
mama: EH heh jantan lah. lu ada beyfren lah macam gua tak tau. (guy lah, you got boyfriend as if i dunno.)
ag: *plays along. pretend shy.*

came home and there was a power outage cos of the 'storm' which was shiok. and i spent 15 mins searching the house for bran, who was hiding in the toilet cos he was so scared of the thunder. T-T

i had to explain what an NRIC number is to sky. think i almost ran out of saliva. lol.

if i sleep over at geil's i'll bring my monkey slippers. and we'll cook. and we'll invite people for dinner, but they must sign a form stating that we aren't liable for any medical problems due to out food before they eat. genius! :D which reminds me...

SKYgenius

ag: do the correction. what is this word?
sky: dunno.
ag: g e n i u s. know what genius means?
sky: dunno.
ag: means a very very smart person.
sky: i am a genius lor!
ag: ah ha ha.. um. do do your work~

later

sky: WAH, see i add in the letter 'i' without erasing the whole word. i'm a genius! *looks for approval.*
ag: genius or lazy to erase?
sky: genius.
ag: okay lor.

today's divided into very hot and very cold. was ridiculously hot (in my AC-less house) in the daytime but the rain later on was so so so shiok. really made me want to go out for a stroll to buy junk food. but QY had to come over for tuition, so i didn't. lol, people go grocery shopping and i go junk food shopping. nice~

didn't go to hospital today since i've been there the past couple of days, but the rest of the family went. i'll go tomorrow. heard that mama's slightly better but not very happy? she's angry with my uncle for some reason so her mood's quite foul. =| but she's stable so that's good. i have pics of her and me with her during dialysis, but i'm seriously too lazy to post them up through my dad's laptop and stuff. i really want a new phone that works. *pouts*

i'm gonna cook myself some ramen. i hate eating alone.

T I R E D because i spent the whole day at SGH. but i just finished watching amazing race and it has made me kinda energized. like, i want to travel! (they were in SG, woots!)

having a very girly kind of bad day. tummy cramps and puffy face. bad skin. tsk tsk tsk. :D

mama's about the same. slightly better today.

i'm zoning out.

. . .

God leads his dear children along.


i zombied out for so long thinking of what to title this post. think those lyrics do the situation much justice. this was mama when we saw her just now. she's diagnosed with sepsis. think that's bacteria circulating in her blood. makes her body break down. the source is her catheter, the thing on her chest used for dialysis.
so mama's in a bad state again. pretty bad. she could sit up but she was quite out of it. didn't really look at me or talk to me. couldn't really talk at all. when she did finally look at me she asked,

mama: mama bila boleh baik? (when can mama get well?)

ag: *pauses to think of good answer, shrugs shoulders*

ag: *tilts head upwards and blink blink blink blinks*

we prayed with her and left at around 8:30pm.
don't know what the docs are planning to do to her. will just see what comes along. think i'll go with my mom tomorrow to spend the day with mama. praying that she will be comfy and happy, without much pain going on. thanks to everyone who is keeping her in their prayers too. means alot.

made friends with a filipino lady because we were both scrubbing dentures side by side. funny.

behold, the charming chaps of ambassador baptist! jay was showing me these pics and i had to post them up. BABY EEEEEEEEEE!

jay you jiatlat lah, you getting double chin liao.

PIG OUT DAY YES?
teeth all wired and bound today, went for braces tightening and re-rubberbanding. *beams*

spent some time roaming around town and munching on junk. went to sembawang and munched on more junk (aka mcdonalds). went to geil's place and pigged out on the sofa. again. i seem like a freeloader. next time must buy stuff when i go there.

aunty gemma you awesome let me sleep unfabulously on your couch and give me pillow somemore!

had dinner, and left for church. message was on psalms 23.

newsflash: mama is down again. not doing good. see i told you it's all very unpredictable with old people. sigh~ thank God she's saved. :)

THURSDAY.

mama's bounced back. on wednesday (when i couldn't go see her) she was in a very bad state. but she had a blood transfusion and on thursday she was great. like normal. only with a very swollen arm. but the discoloration has subsided alot. it just looks like a tattoo now. hahah. i'm thankful for whatever God decides for her, but it is just so good to see her not in pain. know what i mean? :) i'm still quite cautious about it all cos old people are so unpredictable.

this arm is twice the size of the other one. it's like i huge blister. her hand looked like a water-filled glove!

the first thing mama did when i got there was to force me to screen her up so she could show me her left boob, which is also extremely swollen and discolored. she would not let me sit down in peace until i had taken a look and verified that it was strange. ( i used to change her clothes and pampers lah so no big deal.) it was so funny.

ag: mama, kenapa ini macam? (why liddat?)
mama: tak tau? (dunno?)
ag: ada susu tak? (got milk anot?)
mama: tak ada. tak branak. kalau branak ada. (don't have. i never give birth. if i give birth then have.)
ag: LOL.
she answered it so matter-of-factly. um, i dunno if that's the correct berhasa spelling but that's how we pronounce it in peranakan.

anyway,we went home after dinner and did some late night grocery shopping.

this is my subtle, "ples buy for me" face. but i realized my parents don't care what i pick up while grocery shopping anymore, not like when i was younger you know, "why you take that?! no offer dowan put back!" they probably think that if they don't like it i will just have to pay for it myself. :D

no more fever! thank God.

i'll be going to see mama later. ( i know recently everything is about mama on my blog.) she's not doing good. now, for some reason, her left upper torso and left arm are extremely swollen and blue black. (?) bet she must be feeling awful.

i feel like downing one liter of chrysanthemum tea. the weather is, TSK.

HOT

went down for breakfast with daddy and followed him to the market, since it makes him so happy. (he thinks by doing so i am learning 'life skills') the weather was unbelievably scorching hot. came home and felt very strange, and after a while i realized i was running a fever. why is it called "running" a fever ah? anyway, it rose a bit during the day, but after panadol and a nap i think it subsided. i'm just stuck with a headache now. nice~

and because of my suddenly falling sick i didn't get to go visit mama TSK. meaning i have to cancel tuition tomorrow to go. =|

mama has been diagnosed with impending stroke, i think. so that's not good. she's still weak, pretty much the same if not worse. =(

HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER SOON GEILA MONSTER.
nose bloating pics from i forgot when.

when you're feeling horrible and ugly, you can take a look at these pictures and i bet you will feel much better.

that's mama on saturday. on sunday her face was a little more swollen, water retention. i wonder wonder wonder, how things will be in a few days time. eating tao hway now and thinking. :)

take care, geil Z. alamon. bet you're feeling crampy today. :( *sympathy*

matt's family is going back to melbourne tomorrow. so soon.

Rainy Sunny

mister henry from years ago came to church today. and i could recognize him! although he's much taller and manlier now than he was when we went to VBS together as 11 year olds. (wow, fast.) really brings back memories. i remember using waterguns to shoot into his ear during a game when we camped over at st. margrets. and i remember he was the nicest most helpful kid around. chong long, henry, sher and i were the 92's. good seeing him again. :)

came back home after church and lunch for a little while. then we went to see mama again, this time with daddy ad timmy. she's a little worse than yesterday. i think it's gonna be really hard for her to bounce back out of this one. just waiting and seeing and praying that she won't be in pain. she claims my jacket stinks, but there's no smell at all lah. think she just feels bad for taking it and wants me to have it back.

so the family had a nice dinner at the SGH kopitiam. joked around and laughed out loud. (esp daddy with his laughing fits.) tim went back to camp and the rest of us took a long train ride home.

couldn't sleep last night so i'm kinda woozy now. got out of bed at 2 or 3am.. or 2 to 3am (i dunno~) to eat curry puffs (lol) cos i was hungry.

school work tomorrow, ughhh it drags on. i absolutely will be over and done with highschool THIS WEEK i must i must. if not then i will bash my head on my big pink wall. lightly.

MAMA is very sick.
just came home from visiting mama at SGH. my uncle chose not to tell us that she was admitted 3 days ago. we only found out today through my aunt, whom my grandmother pestered my uncle to call. he didn't tell us cos he hates us, and there's a long story behind that.

reached there at 4+. had to wait till 4.30 to register, then had to wait till 5pm to go see her. she was curled up fetal, and i expected her to say, "boom!" when she saw me as she usually does but instead she started crying and stuff with hardly any voice, wah i heartpain. like she was waiting for us for so long. =( stayed with her until 7.30 and made sure she was fed and turned and comfy. we left when she was sleepy. i let her have the jacket isa gave me for my birthday, cos all the other ah mahs had a cute little jacket and i knew she was eyeing on mine. hahah.

she's really weak and the diagnosis isn't certain yet. so, gonna hafta wait and see. she told me she prays "Jesus, Jesus, help me." when she feels horrible and that she feels better after that. that really brought a tear to my eye.

off to bathe now.

DRESS PHOTOS.
credits to timmy for the pics. although i cropped alot out. :D

came back home and everybody whipped out their cameras of sorts. put my heels back on and posed, hahahahah. after i gave mommy a good glare for spying on me, that is.

gold is always safe on black. nah, jamie, photo of the dress. hek hek.

this is so me. rahaha. my mouth was ulcered thanks to the braces.

mama's awesomely vintage pendant and my, um, mole. i dunno when tim got this shot but he knows i'm crazy about the pendant.

regurgitating. looks like i'm saying O B quek.

saying goodnight.

these photos took so long to upload. i went for lunch and came back and they still weren't up yet. think it's cos of the resolution.

super heavy rain now, hoho i like. it's funny, but i feel like going out when it rains more than when it's sunny. isn't it refreshing? no? okay.

OH, and i found out more people are reading my blog than i thought. hello benjamin chan, hee hee. (shy shy)

bran is now freaking out because of the dark and noisy weather. he's hiding under my glass table and staring at me with his huge eyes through the glass as i'm blogging. silly old dog. but so cute right? ^-^

yes, zoomskay, next time we go eat tao hway at hotel or something. upgrade.

i correct myself, it's good friday service, not easter. right? it's confusing, haha.

woke up early to go to church. it really feels like a sunday, makes me all disoriented. the choir practiced and could tell that my voice was in bad bad shape. =( anyway, thank God that some friends whom people invited came today and heard the Gospel. i was trying to be prayerful throughout the day. =) had lunch at church, waited around for a while, came home, and took a nice nap. spent the evening with my funny family (we didn't fight woots!). hahah, we suddenly started playing hangman. was nice.

now watching my fave, 2D1N. (super happy.) the guys are playing table tennis with their dinners and indoor sleeping on the line. meaning if they lose they have to skip dinner and sleep outside in tents (it's cold!).

you know what i really crave? kimchi ramen with fried pork. and nasi lemak with the chili. AND indian rojak. AND mos burger tsukune rice burger. with corn soup. ah.. how to sleep. hahah.

i feel like i have a day tomorrow and i have to spend it well.

enjoying ice milo now. i'm a bit obsessed with milo. the bad thing about that is that milo sorta constipates. but i take something called avalon which makes your system work like clockwork, so i have no problem. what an unnecessary paragraph.

sky chan came by just now, and his mom brought his bro over when she came to fetch him cos his eye had some redness and she wanted my mom to take a look.

bran went to the vet, and i think he really liked it cos he came back beaming with a huge, stupid smile and a bandage round his arm. must be cos he liked the vet or the nurses there. tsk tsk. he's on antibiotics and anti-inflammatory meds now, and he has to go for dental next month where he'll have to go under GA and stuff. (!) so much for a dog. lol.

tim's out with matt and family, i think. kinda later than usual, wonder where he is.

we're singing tomorrow ! easter service. i confirm cannot reach the high notes so i'll lipsynch L O L.