i want the sms mens quartet and christy galkin CD ! :) hope our church will reach that level of choir standard one day. HEEE..

bJohnny has this great question sheet thing where you can write any (sincere) question on it anonymously and he'll answer it until we understand it. SO, any questions you're too paiseh to ask him yourself, email me and i'll write it down for you. :) guess he wants to make sure we all know why we're doing what we're doing, or for that matter, not doing what others are doing.

common questions teens ask:

what's wrong with anything else other than hymns and classics?
what's the diff between charasmatic churches and our church?
why shouldn't girls wear pants? (haha.)
what's wrong with BGR?
what's wrong with going to the movies?
blah blah the list is endless. ASK if you sincerely wanna know because there is an answer for every one of these questions. sometimes we avoid these questions or argue with carnal reasoning because we DON'T WANNA FOLLOW.

Luke 9:23 And he said to them all, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me.

and sometimes we just follow what the pastor says for the sake of 'face' or not getting into trouble.

1 Thessalonians 5:21 Prove all things; hold fast that which is good.
2 Timothy 3:14 But continue thou in the things which thou hast learned and hast been assured of, knowing of whom thou hast learned them;

AZA~

today's a really hot day! i don like...

well anyway, happy anniversary to my parents ! =)

after SG yesterday some of us went for supper near my place. more bonding time. :) had a good time of praying with the girls during SG. each of us are facing different things daily, and it's great that we can come together, encourage, and be encouraged. the only time i don't really like sharing problems is when it becomes a oh-pity-poor-me session, so, must be careful too and check our motives! :) i shared some lame thing about my granny spilling oils on the floor and making my room really slippery. haha, it was the first thing that came to my mind.

anyways, today's children's outing was fun and fun-ny! timmy and my games were weird and the kids weren't that crazy about them. nevermind, just gaining experience. :| jieyi, jacob, YL, geil and roy were there too. once we reached there we went berserk with the waterbombs trying to fill all of them up in a frenzy. we did la, in the end. jacob led the songs! too bad we weren't there to 'support' him as we were berserk-ing away with the bombs. i got eaten up by mosquitoes. :( so we played the games and at the end of everything was the FREESTYLING TIME, when all the kids just went mad and bombed anybody. WHAT'S UP WITH THE BOYS?? they were charging at poor me and hurling many many bombs at me all at once LAH, PAIN LEH! i didn't know it, but i was screaming very very crazily saying weird chinese, malay, and english phrases unconsciously. very sad you know! i was aiming to go home dry as possible. somemore i was having a stomach ache while they were bombarding me LORRR. EEYER! then when we were all walking towards the toilet i could hear them boys whispering, "later she change finish oredy then we BOMB her again!"

and thanks, geil, for the towel. oh and sorry i gave it back to you all smelly and sweaty. heh.

had lunch with a few people and tadah, i'm home.

just got a card from joel wong. :)) so sweeeeet.

Ephesians 6:13-18 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;

listened to a sermon on this passage today and one thing that struck me was the helmet of salvation. helmets are to protect heads. and so our salvation protects our heads. most of the time when christians are attacked it's through the mind. we start questioning and doubting, and with no salvation there's nothing more to think about. but when we know there was a time when we chose God over sin and asked Him to cleanse us and be our King (a.k.a. we got saved), we just have to refocus and obey whatever He says. anyway, it was a great message in which I DIDN'T FALL ASLEEP! =D global phenomenon huh? really, you should hear it too, although the preacher's irish and his accent takes getting used to. ask timmy for the address. HEH.

my freakish headache is subsiding, but i really don't understand why it won't go away. panadol after panadol, i think i'm gonna be transformed into one giant walking panadol LOR. trying not to make a big fuss out of it but it feels like there's a BIG ball barring rolling around in my head, bouncing off my small brain, and hitting my skull. but no worries, it's subsiding so i expect it to vanish soon. =) and hor, pimples are sprouting out all over my collarbones! disaster right? must be the weather.

helped peel and chop veggies just now so my hands reek or garlic and it's spreading to my keyboard. hats off to chefs.

the choice is really simple, GOD or SIN. it's the decision that's difficult, and so we complicate things with rationales and excuses and blameshift here and there. in the end, there's no running away from God. if you're saved, you go to heaven. if you're not, you go to hell. if you're saved and lived on your toes loving God and obeying Him, you get rewards. if you're saved but lived in sin, every word and deed will be under the microscope and questioned. there are no excuses or blameshifting there, and every secret thing will be brought out.

God promised christians strength and power. it's all about whether we're willing to accept it and reject sin or not. daily struggle, but overcomable.

i'm realllly tired over some issue. but hey, everything happens for a reason and God is in control. :) no self-victimizing and wallowing ! AZA!

STILL having the killer headache! IT'S BEEN CHREE DAYS. aaaaaaaaaah pain. :(

the faithful wounds of a friend will never be well taken or readily received, but a friend is born for adversity, and we are to bear each others' burdens. i guess being a christian really isn't all about yourself. there're so many other burdens we help carry for each other. when victories are won, it's a joy. when struggles seem endless, we weep and pray for each other. the christian life's really ironic. we're happy in sadness, we work when we're tired, we can smile as we cry, and we turn the other cheek when someone slaps us. totally not what an abundant life seems like, but it is.

anyway, i'm eating dinner now. it's 11! late dinner. =) i realize how little i've been praying lately. maybe that's why so many things are falling apart! i'll pick it up again! i'm making it sound like a hobby. rephrase, i will pray more!

thank God for all the bros and sis's in church who are so KAYPO and caring. :) my church family.

get well soon raye! eat more sher! [you're not fat lah.]

OH oh, i put on weight again! YIPEEE~

some people requested the link for my 'compo' [haha] generally touching on my socialization so here it is. please don't make mean comments! heh. :)

yesterday daddy and i walked to telipok for SG. tim was gonna go there from somewhere so it wasn't worth taking a cab, and we ended up walking. wanted to see how fast we could reach there on foot. took about 40 mins, not too bad lah. :P everyone was kinda weird or solemn at SG. i think we're all going through our own rough times, but i'm glad we still made time to meet and be encouraged. went to bed quite late and STILL my granny didn't wanna sleep yet. she didn't directly or purposely disturb me lah, but she's deaf so she can't hear the noisy things she does. i admit, i was realllly angry. sounds so not-agnes right? agnes is supposed to be patient and smiley and nice to old folks. i turn into a meanie when it comes to sleep issues. :(

played badminton from 10.30 to 12.30 today, and went to bishan to watch HLC's presentation thing. more so to meet sher lah. bJ dropped me off at yishun mrt and i squeeeeezed into the packed train beside these china guys, from some province, you know, the slang makes it sound almost thai or vietnamese or sth. anyway i think i was kinda smelly from sweating. funny. reached bishan and saw bMike and family and some other kids' families. waited for pickup, reached, and found sher. met a girl called bella there too. fussed around, smiled around, ate food, helped pack up, and went home at.. 6 thereabouts. when i reached home i had this horrible headache which is still kinda bothering me. took panadol and TRIED to sleep but i couldn't. tried to eat but my tummy felt so bloated and undependable i felt like barfing. tried to sleep again, got fed up, got up, and made a nice hot pot of udon to eat, which had made me feel a whole lot better. the flu bug's floating around ... gotta build up immunity. :)

granny HAS to wear pampers now, regardless of whether she likes it anot ! then again even with pampers, someone has to change them for her. :( GAAAAAAAH -- I CAN DOO ITT !!

tomorroh i MUST meet the girls. i will siam everything i can if anything crops up.

Romans 6:1-2 What shall we say then? Shall we continue in sin, that grace may abound? God forbid. How shall we, that are dead to sin, live any longer therein?

the thought of my life and thoughts being 'taped down' and shown to everyone is super freaky. you really start to live life differently when you realize you're accountable to someone and there's no escaping it. :|

my mom's at the doc's now. i don't even know why. got to chat abit to geil yesterday, and i was hoping jieyi'd be online but in the end she wasn't. it's okay. :)

i retook that maths test and passed. finally.

granny's getting weaker each time she comes to stay so i'm doing more and more and more stuff for her. i feel like a private nurse! lol. shall not go into details cause it's quite disgusting. FIGHTING! i can do all things through Christ. philippians something something.

badminton game tomorroh, try to make it pweese.

YAY my blogger dashboard is back to normal so i can post like siao now! been quite busy of late. feeling the stress, which i haven't felt in a while due to simple lazy humanhood. emotionally been in a turmoil. it's not even like a rollercoaster ride lah, it's a bungee. anyways, i hate wallowing in self pity. i have so much to be thankful for, so TARRY ON! won't die one. :) made a birthday card for ah meng two weeks ago, everyone please write on sunday. let's see what's new these few weeks. UM, i failed a math test. got three cards from church people [whee. reap and sow!] went to pasir ris park to celebrate mothers day with my ah mah and got to pet smelly horses. i realllly miss my fellow musketeers and i feel horrible for bailing out on them. i feel realllly bad. SORRY. dono what to say oredy. :(

the posting page in blogger is weird, or issit just my comp? =( waiting for my face mask to dry now.

well, i'm not very sure about the whole card-website thing. i doubt i'll have time to really make and sell properly. as of now i hardly make cards and if i do i have to use them up real quick. SEE HOW LAH. :)

i wonder, if i walked all day in high high heels, would that make my calve muscles grow? hmm. okay, i'm always finding shortcuts. LAZY ME. stress your muscles AND look good at the same time, clever. ARGH, there's some guy/girl upstairs smoking and totally filling my room up with bad stuff!

i want fotos from the tuesday outing! anybody who has them or know of someone who does pleeeeese send them to me, kumapta!

got back into my card-making 'angine' [malay.] or mood yesterday as i made jamie's and des'
birthday cards, so just now i made three of the same cards that are so ADORABLE. they're for sale. i'll keep them in case anybody wants to buy them in emergency situations when they need cards real quick that're cheap. hehh. they're reallly cute. really. i'll bring them to church to show my loyal customer jieyi. :) should make her a membership card for her loyalty to my half past six business. HAHA, can get a 2% discount. aye, she's always paying me in rounded up sums. THANKS JIEYEE !

man, i pity my track shoes. they're neglected. i always wear my kayaking shoes out and leave them in the dark shoe cabinet all alone. i think i'll wear them on saturday. can't bear to see them sit there uselessly any longer. SORRY TRACK SHOES! SORRY CHAO DA GRASS IN LOMBONG!

i LOVE the clothes my aunt gave me yesterday. the great thing is, i was just complaining about not having bought new clothes for the last eon yesterday, and yesterday my aunt bought me two pieces of clothing. although it's just two pieces, it's better than nothing right? :D God even gives me stuff when i'm bad and complain instead of asking Him. :|

my tummy is growing fatter and fatter and there's nothing i can do about it. why? well because of my bad back, my mom forbids me do any sit-ups. i MUST do sit-ups or i will turn into an in proportionate blob that resembles a snowman, skinny limbs and huge tummy. GAH noooo. i want to be FIT !

i had a dream and it was very funny, but i forgot what it was about. :( oh well. AZAA, and do your homework for tomorrow's BTI.

YAHHHHHHH i'm so freaked out and my hairs are still standing. shall relate my horror story to all my fellow freaked-out-by-roaches friends. :) it's a short story lah. i was gonna make cards with watercolor paint and i remember my dad reserving a jar for my painting purposes. so i was walking through the kitchen to get it when i saw this baby ka-zhua lying half-dead on the floor. my dad was changing the gas under the stove and he crawled out so my dad killed him. it. whatever. so i said out loud to myself, EEEEEEWWW and continued walking. then in a split second i visualized my jar and asked myself, what if there's a ka-zhua inside and i pick it up? so i laughed to myself imagining how i'd react and how idiotic i'd look. AND i reached for the jar below the sink AND lo and behold there was a HUMONGOUS ka-zhua staring through the paint stains right into my very eyes ! GAAAAAAAAH. i closed my eyes, shouted YEEEEEEEEEWWWW!! and ran away to find my papa/ pest buster. then i told him how i thought about this happening and it really happening and how i may have some mental future-telling powers, but i think he thought i made it up. :| oh well. it's true, i promise, i really thought of the scene before it happened. weird huh? vleh, now my jar has a roachie in it. gotta use some other glass. :( my daddy'd drowning the fella. HEHH.

happpppy birfday to jamie. :)

AYE, spent may day with the ABMers. we had an outing to lower pierce. now, timmy was asked to be the games master and the day before the outing he and i were crrrracking our brains out trying to think of games to play. thankfully we made up some games and everything went smoothly. this is how my labor day went: we left the house at 8.30, met jieyi at the interchange, took 855 and reached at 9.30. then we saw jamie, des and bro. mike and family at the play ground. tim and i were excited to see a merry go round and rushed there only to have our hopes of a good spin dashed by a huge green spider that had thoroughly webbed the entire merry go round. :( so i saw the flying fox a few meters away and skipped over, hung on, pushed off the ground, and got a face full of spider webs AND A SPIDER on my body. i started freaking out and asking jieyi to flick the spider off but she just said EEE GREEN GREEN ONE. i went into spasms, as you can imagine. anyway, soon all the rest of the people came and we proceeded to the field where we had icebreakers and a sun tan at the same time. learned quite a few new things about some people from the ice breakers. :) bro. johnny then gave a short exhortation and invitation, and we had refreshments that were made with love but kinda squashed too. not long after, we continued playing GAMES! i shan't bother explain how the game goes lah, but it involved blindfolds, colorful balls, locks and keys. heh heh heh. i couldn't play since i arranged all the balls and keys and knew where everything was, so i became camera man and cheer leader. shouted till my throat was/is soooore. so after that everyone continued to play rounders using a log my dad found as a bat. a log. how weird is that? anyway it started drizzling and we all went to makan. most of the girls didn't eat cause we weren't hungry but the guys did [needless to say lah.] said bye and went home in the van, where conversational topics ranged from ponies to lamas to riding camels. came home and napped cause my back was quite painful. don't know what's wrong with it, but it can reallly hurt at times. oh well. :|

what's the diff between a llama and a camel? llamas don't have humps. see? but don't believe all that evolving rubbish of course.
a mare is a matured female horse.
a stallion is, well. an uncastrated male horse.
a baby horse is a foal.

tadah. AZAA must studdy studdy already.