last day of the year, everybody! going for watchnight after korean class later. (raye's not going. roar!) still kinda sick with the cough and stuff.. sighs. my throat feels horrible.

have a good end to 2008 everyone. =) fighting!

today was the last day of choir singing. thank God, it went alright. :) my korean teacher came too. (LOL) i think i forgot to tell everyone that he is very young. they sorta expected an older person, so they got a little bit of a shock. um, he's just my teacher. just a teacher! thanks to everyone too who were so friendly and warm towards him. it's good to have such a warm church family. ^^ he followed us all the way to the beach to see kenny's baptism. (congratulations to kenny!)

after the baptism we dropped son seng nim at yishun MRT and came home to change up and leave for my aunt's house. the dinner there was fantastico~ there was even a korean dish... felt like it was just for moi. hah. came home after a cozy christmas dinner.

my tummy isn't feeling very good now. oh yah, thank God so much that tim's gum is almost totally back to normal, no more deformed beaver! now there's just his viral infection/ fungus thing to deal with. tsk tsk.

last night there was a bat flying in our living room AGAIN. goodness, bat... i freaked out and it flew away eventually.

tim's really suffering now cause he has a huge infection in his gum and he looks like a deformed beaver, or some marsupial with a very protruding mouth. went to the dents and she was quite worried for him, made him take an xray and gave him some strong combination antibiotics and strong painkillers. i think he couldn't sleep last night because of the pain, so my mom gave him double dose of painkillers. if the anitibotics don't help then he has to go under the knife! drainage lah. drain all the pus out. ackk~ he looks really weird now. looks like i punched him or something.

on top of all that his fungus this is totally getting worse. poor timmy.

i found them! the laughing-fit photos! RAWR! i think they really couldn't help it. off tune people can sound realllllly funny. here is the story in a nutshell:

daddy lost his voice. bro. richie didn't know the tune to the song. daddy sang fireworks (think of the sound fireworks make) and bro richie followed. too funny, couldn't take it, burst out in laughter, couldn't stop, spread to me, stopped singing. switched places with mommy and began our special all over. they laughed, mommy laughed, DISASTER and everyone in front laughing at us also.

sighhhhh.

i realise i look skinnnnny in these pics, eh?

just came back from the polyclinic. tim, dad and i went together at around 2, finished around 4. tim got his body fungus checked out and daddy and i got our referral letters to the eye center. dad needs that glaucoma check that tim went for last time and i need to get a specialist's opinion of my eye.. spasms. i think i told some of you already, my eyes suddenly dart all over when i'm concentrating sometimes, just for a split second. i sorta got used to it so i continue with whatever i'm doing (usually drawing or writing) but when mommy heard about it she really wanted me to go for a check. i also have this ringing in my ear pretty often and i think my eyesight has deteriorated, so, to the eye center! i hope it's nothing serious, like some brain problem or something. =|

after school i had lunch with birthday girl geil yesterday. =) pretty disastrous, but it's the effort that made it sweet. heh. went to swensens for ice cream after eating. yummay!

reached jurong early and went to the library to revise with raye. our korean is slowly improving, slowly. left for class at 6. the teacher told us to go early for extra lesson time but in the end he was late so we waited and waited. at least now we've 'bonded' with the other students and alot of the ice is broken. the lesson went on alright, but there's this older lady in our class that's mentally disabled in some way, and she kept interrupting the teacher. anyway, we had our first dictation too. (whoooo so exciting luh.) i did alright. hah.
took the train back with this girl called chelsea and the teacher again. found out the teacher has a few jobs here? or something like that. his teaching us is like an on-the-side thing. he is very very shy. he's so shy that he didn't dare to sit beside me, he just stood right in front of the seat until i told him to just sit down. am i scary? lol. nevermind don't answer. we talked about dok boki until he reached yew tee, leaving me to my long and lonesome ride.

end of wednesday. brain tired.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GEIL !! whooo~ today is your day!

see you later! sorry i can't find the advertisement! will continue searching for it.

jajjang~! revised korean with miss raye again today. managed to bank some useful phrases into our vocab list. will try to put them to use with each other. we went to the jap foodcourt after buying our in-food -- dok boki! we realized that asian food is super healthy, especially her bento set. rice, salmon, egg tofu, and long beans. who could grow fat on that kind of food?! go asia. :)

geil's birthday is technically tomorrow since it's past 12. whooooo~ haaaaaapy birthday to you, ah cannot sing yet! kekekeke.

came back from our 5-day church camp yesterday. the camp was good, themed waiting on God. =)

suffering from some fungus now.. all over my thighs. horrible feeling. as long as it doesn't spread to my face i'll be fine. =|

met up with ray to revise our korean and eat dok buki! some spicy rice cake street food. ^^ racheol fighting~!

ah my brain's tired.

tomorrow's the last day of VBS whaaaaaaaaa! i always get the feeling of missing the children when it comes to an end. hope they remember the lessons. :) i love the kindies, inspite of the tantrums and whining.

the jingle took off too, thank God. i was afraid it would be a total disaster and that it was too wordy and difficult, but phew~. ^^ the skits we prepared were so good! but the performance today especially was, soso. hahah. still, today in the toilet one kid yelled from inside a cubicle, captain agnes the show was so nice leh the show was so nice! wah, i almost cried lah. little responses like that from the kids are so moving. :) jaaaaamie you should have heard the way she said it man.

*tune*
we are the sailors in God's navy
we have His treasure
#1 is the Bible where we learn about God
#2 is Jesus Who died for us
#3 is the power to live for Christ!
*tune*

aza aza fightiiiiiiiiiiiing~!!

today was the first day of VBS and WAHHHHHHH, it's draining. i really like my class. thank God they were good today.

yesterday was the second korean class. the people in our class are pretty cold and anti-bonding except a nice few. managed to make some friends by being thickskinned and talking first. got to take MRT with the teacher and some other korean teachers too (so cool lahhhh~) and asked alot of questions, more about the teacher than the korean. my teacher (son seng nim) only studied english for about 2 months lah! *jaw drops* in two months, i must be as good in korean as he is in english.

=) fighting!

i just made the boat and puzzles and tails for tomorrow's VBS day. the boat has things to hang the paddles on, very very cute. keke~

super super sad to miss ko class next week because camp starts on tuesdayyyyyy ahhhhhhh~ ! money fly away. the lesson looks more difficult. tsk. will try to meet up with raye raye on monday to practice talking and maybe go to that sol-mart in novena. =) monnndayyyy come soooonnnn.

i think it's about time i blogged the old news. i'm not working on the book anymore.

SO
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turns out after adrain met with the publisher he realized the book needed alot more work than he'd thought, and i can't afford to give all my time and effort to it so i dropped out. sighs.

there are some problems with gran's housing too. mom and uncle really not on good terms now. complicated.

vbs is coming! rarrh~ went to bugis with jamie on monday to buy our art stuff. made some really cute props for our kindies class! =) i think she's coming over today to rehearse what we planned for the kids.

oh oh another thing is korean lessons started! last week, yes so happy lah. today's the second lesson. so glad i'm learning with miss raye. but hor, the teacher pronounces my name as ag-er-nes. =( might just change it so it's easier for him and less embarrassing for me. T.T"

fighting!

just came back from seeing gran at the dialysis center. she lost alot of weight. 10kg? she's skinny. the first thing she wailed when she saw me was.." i diarrhea diarrhea!!" =( poor gran.

other than that she was pretty cheerful. bought carrot cake for her since she wanted it. probably will go see her again on saturday. i have the feeling her time is limited.

fighting~

the book and my schoolwork are keeping me busy, thus the absence of new posts. (soz!) so far, i've drawn the second draft for the pictures. gonna pass it to adrian tomorrow so he can show it to the publisher. we're still trying to get the book out by december. yeow~

thank God, korean classes start next week. it got shifted back cause the teacher's schedule got messed up. so i don't have one more thing to clog my mind up-- yet. now there's VBS to plan for too, so, my brain is tired.

goodnight. rarr i'm hungry.

i can't sleep so i decided to blog some poems that i find nice. :D Poems help me fall asleep.

What Can The Dying Man Do?
What can the dying man do for himself?
In the form of a bill, in the shape of a coin.
All he has worked for cannot mend his health;
He has spent his life toiling, only to die.
His family and loved ones he all pushed aside;
He gave up what mattered for money, for pride.
But silver nor gold no power doth hold
When it comes to the wrath of God.
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The Hard Road
Everybody's leaving; the world is in dismay.
Still I am a'cleaving to this Bible, to this way.
Friends bid me farewell as I continue down this road.
Sometimes as I watch them pass I feel this heavy load--

Load of sadness, load of angst.
I know I should be giving thanks.
It's so hard to bear this load, to walk this road.
Like that man of constant sorrow,
I wonder if that bright tomorrow
Will ever come, will ever be.

Yes, God said it
And I believe.
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-Untitled-
Long are the days when people cry
Far are the roads that people trudge
Loud are the whispers of a sigh
Bound are the ones who hold a grudge
Things we have done and can't undo
Hold our minds in stern regret
Wishing we'd thought it through and through
Daring not let ourselves forget
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Oh Souls Around Me
O Sad Soul,
Rejoice evermore.
You are awaiting
For the heaven's more
That was promised you
In the Old Book of Faith.
Gather your patience,
Just a while more wait.

O Doubtful Soul,
Childlike heart all up-grown.
Now for all things
Evidence must be shown.
And if there is none,
Then you will not believe.
To earthly logic
You hang and you cleave.

O Weary soul,
Is this race far too long?
Can't but look back
At the times you were strong.
Out is the fire
That once burned in your eyes.
Winded and wounded,
Know God hears your cries.
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Upon This Train
Today upon this train i sit
Awaiting when i shall return
To my dear husband, 'ma, and kid
And tell them all what I have learned

Upon this train I sing my song
And wonder at the echo's ring
For this train ride must be so long
And I'll be bored if i don't sing

I met some people, kind but grave
Who feared the train would never reach
I could not stand their panicked state
So I got the Reverend to stand and preach

I write to you, dear ones at home
With pen in hand and tear in eye
I miss you so, oh you must know
That you are in this heart of mine

And if I die upon this train
Then I state: I have no regret
For God's own Son for me was slain
And on dear Jesus my mind is set

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the last one is kinda sweet isn't it? can imagine that lady in the train writing. it's a little funny too, the panicked state part.

goodnightey~

RARRRH this month is gonna be exciting. hokay, i wasn't sure whether or not i could spill the beans but adrian said i could --- ADRIAN'S WRITING A KIDS' BOOK! and i'm the illustrator wahhhhh! he's doing it for a project and i get a feeling it's some personal milestone thing too, but anyways, it's too exciting! we're taking it really seriously, it HAS to go through. it should be published in december! just came back from our first meeting where we discussed the shape of the book, tones, drawings, settings, ages, layouts, message of the story, etc. i'm really smiling right now, really. art is the only thing i can be stressed out and happy about at the same time.

now, i have to draw like siao.
5 more days to korean class. asalabeeya~!

the title is
A Very Old Stone
or is it The Very Old Stone..
adrian !

saturday was a little happier than usual for me. after teens club i met up with raye at jurong to SIGN UP FOR KOREAN CLASS AHHHHH! we went to the wrong block first (due to her bad memory) but we managed find the school easily after that. timmy lent me his card to pay first, so brotherly right? anyway, raye and i were on the moon. we've been waiting for this year end for so long. thank God it's working out! i hope i don't mess this opportunity up. =|

after talking for a while she went for job training and i went home. end of happy day. ^^

on sunday nobody sat beside me *CRIES*. geil come back now~! during lunch i was sitting with aunties janet and alice. i think i became an aunty for a while there. geil come back now~!

geil came by our place after i finished my schoolwork yesterday, since we didn't have a proper farewell on sunday. she left this morning for the phils, and i'll only see her IN DECEMBER ACKK~ have a good trip, girl.

after geil left we went to SGH to see gran, and surprisingly she looks much better! (than when she was admitted.) she still can't breathe well but she was stitting up and eating and fairly happy. thank God. :) for those who don't know what's going on with her, um, i think her heart is very weak and she's retaining alot of water which is pressing against her lungs ...... or something like that. anyways, her body is getting weaker every week. she may look livelier on some days but it's only fact that her organs can't really get better from here on.

aza~

HAPPY BIRFDAY GERLYNN DID I SPELL YOUR NAME RIGHT ?
heh~

wasn't really in a blogging mood last week so i didn't post anything up. very brief description of the week:
on monday we all went to the peranakan museum. found out it was open house time now so free free! took quite alot of pics there but they're all with tim.
mom and i went to IMM daiso on tuesday but got a call while shopping halfway saying gran was admitted to GH again because she couldn't breathe. mom and dad rushed down and tim and i went home. (tim and dad were somewhere else in jurong.) dad bought a wheelchair from cash converters for gran so tim and i had to bring that back.
i spent wednesday to friday being down with stomach flu, which i passed on to tim. the end!

my tummy's still in bad shape now. having gastritis (pain!). mom says it happens sometimes after stomach flu because the germs are attacking the stomach wall. she simplifies everything for me. keehee~

AZA AZA FIGHTING!!!!

many people were sniffing and coughing at church today. it's in the air people, take care of yerselves!

went to BV to see gran after lunch just now with my family and EE. EE bought KFC since gran's mad about chicken. when we got there we realized the center DOES NOT SERVE MEAT cause it's founded by a buddhist guy or something. we just brought her down in a wheelchair quietly and let her eat anyway. ;D the place is alright and gran was in a fantastically talkative mood. will post pics when i get them.

GET WELL QUICK GEIL. hope you'll feel better soon. check the envelope when you recover okay?

yesterday EE brought me to a PERANAKAN PLAY which was so so so cool i'm seriously loving having peranakan blood in me now. gah! it was funny and gave a thorough picture of our culture. they spoke in peranakan so i only understood 50% of it but there were subs projected too. acting wasn't fantastic but that didn't make it any less enjoyable. the songs were so cute! i thought of my gran when i heard the songs cause she sings just like that. my EE and mom tell me that my grandpa was a part of that association and used to act and sing in the plays too. too bad i didn't get to watch. if i get to go to melaka i'll save for a baju kebaya of my own. heehee.. :D

relaking with rice face mask on. rejuvinationnnnn~

gran has moved into brightvision rehab! thank God, it's nearer than that other st. andrews place (which rejected her.) :) she has a month there so i hope she gets back on her feet during that time, so we can take care of her at home after that. we all went to see her during the week, bringing chicken soup and rojak. she looked great that day. ^^ go mama!



loving the rain now.. it's like the aircon we never had! oh, daddy's gonna let me shop for art stuff next week. i'm zooming in on oil painting. also returning the 6hr (!!!!) dvd CH lent me. watched it in double speed. heh, cheat.

sunnyday evening's vienna boys choir concert! i give them four out of five stars. :) the singing was fantastic, but some arrangements were a bit disappointing, especially 'arirang', since i like that song so much. anyway, photo! yes, one only. didn't really get to take any since we left quite quickly.

TIM IS EIGHTEEEEN. had a pizza celebration at e2 olga's house on saturday. cozy! :) he likes my present alot. =D i let him open it the day before so he could wear it on his birthday. i think he's been wearing it for three days straight. ew.

saturday started with teens club at sembawang park. had the lesson and played captain's ball, then went to sun plaza to eat. i think we went there mainly for the aircon. i shared beef rice with geil. went for choir and headed home to bathe and have dinner at my aunt's.
before going back to church for choir s.yunli, geil and i went to the thrift shop near church to take a peek. it's really mysterious there cause of the many rooms and two cute old people tending to the place. quite alot of old stuff there. saw this pair of leather shoes that had potential so i tried them on and they were a perfecto fit! and i have adopted them. KEEHEE.. ^^ couldn't let them rot there all alone, and the price was really good. s.yunli and geil were laughing at me cause i was browsing through other items with the shoes on in the shop. my inner karung guni came out as i dug through all the clothes and bags.. rarh! but i didn't buy anything else. after choir i brought the shoes back, cleaned them up and put leather conditioner on them.

$3 ! are you kidding me?

thrift shop jjang lah, jjang!

this weekend i also finished up the drawing for mommy. taza!

looks like the baby's playing rock paper scissors right? LOL.

getting back to making cards since my aunt and sher want some. :D i'm looking out for good stickers, no kind in particular, to make cards with.

drew a picture just now and i'm giving it to mommy! i know i don't usually post up drawings on this blog, but i really like this one. i saw it on a nat geo cover while i was looking for pics for my schoolwork. in case it's not figure-outable, it's a picture of a mom lying down with her baby in her arms. sweet huh? you know how i usually settle with imagining the hair so as not to waste pencil lead? well, i had to draw the hair for this one. couldn't bear leaving the mom botak. :) as you can see, it's not finished yet.

the baby is SO HARD TO DRAW. puffy eyes and folded skin all over! but he's SO CUTE TOO.


aza!

MY PRECIOUS PRINTED HOODIE WAS STAINED BEYOND REPAIR BY A RED BAG I WORE AHH I'M SO ANGRY AT THE.. BAG !

*freaks and bangs head on wall then proceeds to throw away bad bag*

it's my only printed hoodie, c'mon. :(
i'm so wary of red bags now.

gran just must make a funny face when i take her photo! went to see her on saturday morning. shan't elaborate, but according to mommy she looks better than on previous days cause that day she was her chatty self again. saw her wound cause gran insisted i took a look at it while the nurse was doing dressing. good thing mom described it to me beforehand a few days back so i was mentally prepared. it isn't as bad as i thought, but it is grosse. it's like meat after you stuff it, and you sew it up with wide stitches diagonally, only thing her arm's flatter now that the junk inside's been removed. the neck tube's been moved to her chest too. oh, gran you strong old soul!

i think the monsoon season has finally arrived! tim began his army training today. daddy's making sure he gets real tired. (evil laugh) but it's good that tim's willing to go through daddy's exhausting schedule, so at least daddy doesn't have to force him. wah, i see them exercise i also feel like joining lor! gahaha. i was telling tim it wouldn't be such a bad thing if we switched duties.. he studied and i worked out. he thought so too. :D

OH LOVELY RAIN! i like, i like!

timmy was a sweety today and gave us a treat at toa payoh! LALALA i am there when there is a treat you know me~ it's not like he's very rich but he still wanted to share some love. thanks timmy, i feel so...... full. HAHAH.

this picture is titled: agnes is crazy. yeah, i kinda overloaded on the salad.

better eat your money's worth, tim.

see, all greens. guiltless meal. ^^

moi plate.

i'm so happy for you timon, says the plate.

and i couldn't leave brannie out so i came home and took a picture with him. keke.

end of happy tuesday.

if i got it right, gran went for the op to put back the dialysis thing in her arm last night. poor gran has gotta put up with one thing after another. :\

tim finishes work at KK today! woots~ now it's exercise exercise exercise until he goes crazy. i did note to my daddy to bring his inhaler along. safety first. *winks* i MAY join them while they workout, definitely not in the mornings but in the night. heh heh. my family is noticing my spare tire(s). :O

i was thinking about how i always regret not making my parents put me in a ballet class, and i think it was actually a good thing they didn't. if i did start feeding the interest i'd be having a hard time stopping it now because I LOVE BALLET SO MUCH. so i guess it was a good thing they didn't let me dance. yes when i was a kiddy i wanted to be a ballerina, you din know right right? hah. imagine agnes in a tutu.

today we sang that sky high song, but i sang the alto part since i have an uncooperative throat. UMM, we could've used more time to practice the alto part lah, but OH WELL what to do? we'll just do better for the next song. :) although i can't help but wince when i think about it. i don't think we sounded nice! but anyway that's just my opinion, and like bro. bob says, it's the heart that counts since we're singing for God. i hope God liked it. :\

after church, had lunch and went home with timmy. oh, and the pizza i blogged about the other day wasn't from him? i dunno, heard later that my dad bought it. confusion.

i think something's wrong with my head, i've been having headaches alot more these days. you know the kind where, if you move your head it feels like there's a metal ball inside rolling around and hitting the sides of your skull? maybe i have some tumor inside, or maybe i'm just plain paranoid. :D

ahhh, it's the lovely weekends. this week went by pretty fast, maybe because of that holiday in the middle. :)

this sunday we're gonna sing a really difficult song, and i really don't know if we can, but oh well. please don't be mad at me if i lipsynch some parts because i CANNOT HIT THE NOTES! nope, can't. tried and failed. eh-heh. :\ gonna practice tomorrow. we'll see how it goes.

have a nice weekend everybody. aza!

gran is still pretty down, according to mommy. tried to talk to her on the phone yesterday, but HAHA she couldn't hear very well even though i was shouting my lungs out. she only caught the vowels so she pushed the phone back to my mom saying i was talking nonsense. -_-"
she must be so sian in hospital for so long. :(

anyway i thought i'd elaborate on what geil and i did yesterday. i went to popular after lunch to get the vouchers for jeremiah. her parents went home to ZZZ but geil stayed with me. after a while we found ourselves at the DICTIONARY section (!!!). no lah we not so studious lah, i was looking for an english-korean dictionary and geil was mesmerized with all things french. well, not all things, now that i think about it, just the language, heh. so we stood there for a long time reading those phrase books for tourists and trying to pronounce the phrases. XD funnay. bought wrapping paper for her mom and headed to the house.

waited for her parents but they were real tired, so geil and i went to the party first. the end.

oh, and popular doesn't even have english-korean dictionaries?? pfft. got thai, jap, german, french, no korean. *_*

the baptisms and birthday celebration went really well! today, jeremiah, ed, and uncle ro. became part of our church OFFICIALLE. =) three cheers to them~

was pretty tired and i had a nagging headache so i knocked out just now.

some pics i ripped off the abm webb. was browsing through the pics.. funnyness.

me being teacherly and policewomanly. the small girl is totally looking up to me. ack i feel old! look i got the ah mah hair.

the way they wore their sashes so style lah! that's me mummified. for the record, i love waterbombs.

people peaceful why you come and disturb? HUH?

YOU SPLASH ME?!

RAWRR, my fury unleashed. funny, it doesn't look very painful. jake's just smiling.

apple crumble. my manna.
how embarrassed can i be right? it's just a picture..
AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHKKKKKKK ! the deal is, i lent tim low that phone, and i left some pics behind which i SHOULD HAVE DELETED. *hammers forehead with fist*
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on a sadder side of the day. gran's not doing as well as she was on monday. mom thinks there's still some INFECTION in her arm. GAHR! how can? aye we'll see how lah. :(

yesterday i finished school earlier and went to see MAMA! with mom and dad. she amazes us all. when we got there she was sleeping like a baby in her fetal position, then she woke up and started talking and talking and talking. she was put in the high dependency ward because she was breathless for some reason. the ward is sweet, BUT there're no chairs or anything accommodating to the visitors BECAUSE they don't want you to stay long in there lah. pfft. fed mama the porridge we brought and she ate that instead of her provided dinner. she couldn't even be bothered to let us feed her, just helped herself. she must miss home food. after that we just spent some time with her, laughed with her, wondered at how she does this time and again.

gran's stable now, and totally unlike her horrible state on friday and saturday. her arm is nice and flat now, no more inflammed scary mass there, but her arm is a little swollen with water. she still has to use the tube in her neck for dialysis. the docs changed her drip thing to her ankle cause her hand one was quite inflammed. :O she is eating well and talking like usual. miraculous lah, thank you God!

of course, pics for you! i must say, gran is queen of funny faces.

*yes, porridge jjang!*

*mmmm, thank you for praying for me! don't i look cute now?*
aegyo~ omo, kiyowoh!
i mean, might as well right? :P
praying together before we go. mommy prays then mama mumbles things she wants to add, like help her to not feel chuan, help her to poop, etc.

when you see her before and after, you realize for yourself that life and death really are in God's hands.

gran got through the surgery nice and steady! man, she's one fighting mama. i am actually very surprised. i guess God has more plans for her for now. :)

she and my parents waited from 2+, after her dialysis, until like 9 this morning before she could actually have the surgery done. daddy was updating me while i was at church. i was a little nervous about the outcome, but i wasn't emo or anything lah. haha. it was really really nice of everyone to show concern in their own ways. support does help.

parents have gone to lala land. :) they seem alright. it's sweet to see them stick together in times like these. was talking to my mom last night,
M: i'm okay. daddy's with me.
A: yah yah, just don fight can already.
M: now he starting to fight with me already. HAHA~
D: *mumbling in the background*
M: i tell him to get cold water he go and get hot water.
A: and now he's insisting he's right?
M: yalah.
A: HAHAHAHA.
M: i told him to go watch TV
A: hahahahahaha.

so sweet lah i tell you. it's nice to have someone you can lean on. :) *song comes to mind?* keke.
timmy bought us pizza today. i wish i had more working brothers, boy would life be good. XD

thank God for carrying us through, without much turmoil or trauma, other than on mama's part that is. he really gave us the calm and strength we needed, and he's letting us have mama for a while more. ^^

came back about half an hour ago from SGH. thanks to BJ who made a trip there to support support. we caught a ride from him, we being tim and me. brought some stuff for mom and dad, just toiletries for tomorrow morning.

saw gran and she looks horrible. her fever has subsided, i think she still looks so sick! she was at dialysis when we saw her, shivering and drowsy and not able to talk. but she recognized us and tried to smile and stuff. anyway, she should be in for the big op at 2+. it's big because of the anesthesia, complex stuff. gave mom and dad big hugs before leaving and told them to tell me if the slightest thing happened. BJ and S.lydia passed them a Bible too. thank you so much BJ and S.lydia, for the love and support. everyone else too.

i can't help but think it's cute that daddy was gonna cry so many times. i myself was taking deep breaths to handle all those sad scenes and i was thinking to myself, no daddy don't cry ah! you cry i won't be able to hold it in already! HAHA. my daddy has a very tender heart although he looks tough, but hey, who won't feel heartwrenched when it comes to our moms? especially this mama of ours. :) anyway some of you are asking how am i? i think i'm alright. hoping for the best, preparing for the worst. yes, easier said than done, but i'm trying. must be strong strong girl, strong with trust in God.

just called mommy and she told me more clearly what's going on over there. gran had some tube inserted down her neck already. that is the first thing on the 'list'. i think the tube's for her dialysis. now she's waiting for dialysis, which would take about 3 hours. after dialysis is done she'll go for the big op for her arm, to remove the shant (spelling?) and stuff. mom says thank God that the antibiotics are working so her fever's gone down, and the pain is manageable now. so that's that.

was talking to mommy, trying to find the useful questions to ask so i don't waste her brain energy on stupid things. she said, "sitting beside mama now..." wah, i heartpain when i heard that lah for some reason, maybe because i was picturing it. then i asked about the pain and she said, "... thank God the pain is tolerable now, she's just silently groaning." then i laughed, "silently groaning?" haha. i could tell mom was real tired. please pray for my parents too.

correction! gran's infected part of arm did not burst, i think it just got worse. uncle gave some wrong info. got a call from mommy during choir. asked her if i should go over to the hospital but she wanted me to come home. gran's gone for surgery, heard it'll be a whole night thing, so my parents will stay there indefinitely. they want us to stay home tonight and go to church tomorrow.

i don't know if it's very serious or not, but i know gran's too old for surgeries. mommy also said grans whole hand was bandaged and she was in alot of pain, which totally put a knife in my heart. i think i am scared and worried, yes that's what i'm feeling now. oh, and i'm sorry i didn't tell some of you earlier at choir. was afraid i'd start my waterworks if i tried to say it out, haha. so i just msged geil, but apparently it didn't get through, thus the late news.

please pray that gran will have less pain, and that she will be sure that she's God's child.
i love mama. =)

the weather was quite cool last night, but it was all ruined by some irritating MOZZIES! i was being bitten all over while i slept and woke up because it was so itchyyyyyy. AAAAAAH ! my legs, back, fingers. tonight i'm gonna fumigate my room ah i tell you. tsk.

going for teens club later. i'm kinda sleepy and very hungry.

MY DOG IS SO CUTE. sometimes i really can't stand his adorability and i feel like hugging him until his eyeballs pop out.
UMM, that sounded sadistic. what i mean is I LOVE MY DOG.

his eyeballs are unbelievable. he can challenge those chameleons.

CUUTE RIIGHT?! bran endorses nike. ;))

DOOLY FACE! doo-ly~

Vois sur ton Chemin

Vois sur ton chemin
Gamins oubliés égarés
Donne-leur la main
Pour les mener
Vers d'autres lendemains

Sens au cœur de la nuit
L'onde d'espoir
Ardeur de la vie
Sentier de gloire

Bonheurs enfantins
Trop vite oubliés effacés
Une lumière dorée brille sans fin
Tout au bout du chemin

Sens au cœur de la nuit
L'onde d'espoir
Ardeur de la vie
Sentier de gloire

looking forward to vienna boys' choir now. whopee~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RAYE.

i feel bad that i thought her birthday was tomorrow. aw~

(agnes singing) THANK GOD FOR THE RAINNNNN~ i like i like.
and i mean the actual rain, not mr. rain.

the songs from Les Choristes are in my head! i'm sorta learning to sing some. (HEH!) i wish my parents stuck me in a choir when i was younger. singing kids are so cute. oh yes, did i mention? i have an ULCER in my throat. mom says for some reason i'm very prone to that. trying to keep it under control else my throat becomes a pus farm again, bad memories. it's not a very big ulcer but it hurts. still, i'm singing those frenchie songs inspite. haha, i think my family is irked out by my voice floating around the house all day, like a ghost's. sorry lah, abit out of tune. :D

fighting!

got fedup with matching clothes this morning so i just threw on a dress. i think i'm wearing all my dresses too often. they're so convenient lah! (and airy. ehh ;))

today the passage for SBH was 1 corinthians 9-10. i tried my best to pay attention, daydreamed a little in the middle. (i'm sorrry.) then it was aunty janet's and my turn to teach chapel. was genuinely feeling nervous before that. i'm always afraid i'll like, say something wrong and ruin a child's life forever or something ridiculous like that. i think i did alright, thank God. :D the kids are sweet when they're not fighting.

napped for a while when i came back, but woke up because i was SWEATING. then accompanied mommy down for a stroll to guardian and watsons, etc. i bought a pretty notebook since the old one ran out of pages.

i'm so sleepy now.

woke up the latest i could today, cause i was so SO sleepy! i still am now, in fact. went down to dabao food. i would have skipped breakfast if i could, but my appetite's ridiculous nowadays. i used to think i was one of those blessed ones who ate tons of junk and never grew an inch, but i'm beginning to see that i'm not. there's REAL FAT layering on my body, in bad places. so anyway, i was starving when i woke up and i went down to get some food and bubble tea. (cravings. tsk tsk.) half way buying, the van came to pick me up for teens club. and off i went.

after teens, had lunch at SUPER-BORING SUN PLAZA. sorry lah guys, i sorta decided on the place right? i just needed ACon. :D seriously the heat's killing me these days. edward joined us, and i tell you he's super talkative and has that sec-1 humor. HAH, it's nice having him around. join us every week ah, ed. then we shall eat in sembawang for ever. ;))

choir was alright. i had good voice in the beginning but it wore off quickly. i really regret not taking more care of my voice when i was younger. i sorta wrecked my throat. so sad. now i can't reach those high notes like i used to! i'm in a julie andrews mood thinking about it...

finishing up an order of cards that i've delayed for so long. hope to deliver them via timlow-mail tomorrow. OH yah, i'm teaching chapel tomorrow too! i still get jittery okay.

fighting~

IT

IS

SO

HOT

TODAY

... and yesterday too. man, not nice leh. that, coupled with nasty hormones, is making my face turn into a zit farm again! ARRG. angry red volcanoes (AHA, exaggeration) popping out. yes, people who meet me.. you will see. =(

mommy was given MC for yesterday and today, so we went to see gran this morning. at first she seemed alright, but then she began puking and stuff, but at least her fever was down. we (mom, dad, me, aunt) left shortly after she went in for dialysis. after lunch mom and i went for a walk at AMK hub, and i was buying a present for tim when mommy got a call from the hospital saying that gran's arm-- the part used for dialysis-- was infected, causing her sky high fever attacks, and they couldn't go through with dialysis cause the infection could get into her bloodstream if they needle her. UM, anyway she's in SGH again. temporary ward 54D, room 11 bed 1. cut short our shopping trip and met up with daddy to go home. so, the granny episode is not over yet.

managed to get tim's birthday present. it's simple and he already has a lot of them, but it's nice. also bought a pair of heels, some jap brand, at a super slashed price. two of the four things i planned to buy. oh well. =)

aunt invited me to a PERANAKAN CONCERT, or play, or something like that. WHOO~~ i was saying, too bad i don't have my own suit of baju kebaya. =(

really appreciate those people who visited gran on sunday, that was very thoughtful of you all! gran's fever went up and down. we got to see that when dad, mom and i went to see her yesterday. one moment she's curled up and shivering, the next she can sit up and talk. it's scary, but thank God the fever's manageable. if it gets out of hand, meaning she doean't respond to the meds there in AMK, then she'll be sent to SGH-- again. she was happy to see people caring for her yesterday. (yes, she loves attention. but who in her shoes wouldn't?) i thought mommy was strong. when gran was really jiatlat and puking and shaking i was going to display some waterworks already, but mommy seemed fine. she just kept sponging her. :)

went home and waited for 10pm, when arts central was showing a movie i've been wanting to watch for AGES. i knew about it before, and the vocal teacher that taught our choir recommended it too. found out about the singer, jean-baptiste maunier, while searching youtube. anyway, the film is called les choristes and it's nice.

mommy at SGH getting her ear checked out now. may be a number of things, but we'll see. daddy's accompanying her.

today was an average saturday, teens-lunch-choir-home day. there's nothing much to tell..

just got news that gran is now running a HIGH fever, 39+, which probably feels more than horrible. please keep her in your prayers. heard something about low oxygen levels and stuff too. hope she will be fine. mama fighting~

brain tired now. goodnight people.

been thinking about december's church camp. seriously looking forward to it, cause i realized it'll be the only time in this entire year when i'll get to go overseas. does malaysia count as overseas? over a tiny sea. no travelling for me this year. um, sad. especially since year 16 is supposed to be exciting and fun and whatever else it's made up to be. but anyways, at least there's still church camp.

yesterday gran was running a fever. a day or two before that she told us she had problems breathing all of a sudden, but the docs said all seemed fine so they would just observe her. i hope nothing's wrong.

mom and dad went to the polyclinic on wednesday. mom has some deafness in her ear (!!!!) and dad needed to go for a blood test, liver stuff. age really is a bugger...

i'm SO SAD for bran! his entire upper row of teeth are shaky and one already dropped out, who knows when! it's really dawning (more like crashing) upon me that bran won't last forever, and that is such a depressing thought. he's only, what, 6? and he's becoming a boh gey, ah pek dog! *sniffs* age REALLY is a bugger. when bran dies, i don't think i'll be able to take it as containedly (i made that word up) as jake. i'll be crying all over the place.

took this at sheng siong. you should NEVER stack damage. it just comes back to you in the end!wanna remove your iris, lip, or eye?

KY learning to cycle from a person (me) who hardly knows how to cycle. gagaga~

sent bran to the groomers and he's BOTAK AGAIN!

prayer retreat was good! more tiring than i expected, but still good. the lessons were on faith, cause prayer requires faith. there was just a small group of us who stayed over.

waited for the van for quite some time at pasir ris mrt. ended up wandering around the mall abit before slumping down on some benches inside, tim, me and geil. van picked us up and we booked into the chalet, got settled into our rooms, had a short word time, then went to buy stuff for the stay. had dinner out and went back for another word time and prayer before going to bed. didn't exactly sleep well, but compared to the other campers i think we got the most sleep.

woke up at 6 the next day. i was bunking with tim. prayed after the message and had breakfast. then morning worship. then we prayed again? i can't remember. anyway it was free time all the way after that, so we went cycling. i accompanied KY since she and i couldn't really cycle, and she rented a bike to learn. (lol) went back to the bungalow a few hours later to bathe and eat dinner, then had evening worship and went to bed. tim went back home cause he was coming down with something. this time the rooms were taken by some families, so the girls bunked in the hall together.

started worship at the same time, 6:30, the next morning. all of us were seriously sleepy. had breakfast and packed up to go home. BJ sent us back.

the end! not exactly eventful or fun, but a good time to remember the importance of prayer. there're pics but they're not with me. i'll post them when i get them.

UMM, i'm going for the ABM retreat later! so i thought i'd blog a little before leaving my lovely computer for a few days.

thank God i did well for my maths test. and i completed the calligraphy work that i esteemed impossible yesterday! (almost broke my fingers trying to finish that. tsk.) may post up pics of my sweat and blood on the art blog.

gran has put on WEIGHT, like obviously. i guess that's a good thing. =)

been watching this kr show called infinity challenge (dramas are boring. variety shows are more worth the time!) and it's FUNNY. the show gets six 'misfits' to do tasks and missions, and the humor feeds off their quirks. :D yesterday i was watching an episode where they went to korea's english town where everyone is forced to speak whatever english you know, and it was hilarious, i was laughing out loud with my head phones on at my comp. parents walked pass my room shaking their heads and imitating me. HEH.

gonna pack for the retreat.

iknowiknow i'm so guilty of neglecting my blog. :( trying to get back to that daily-posting habit.

i'm really thinking about learning/studying korean. alright, i know everyone's like shaking their heads thinking i'm one of those korean-crazed aunties/teenagers that's swept away with the flow of the stupid kwave. i'm not ohkay! the kwave just introduced this culture to me and i now find it interesting, if may phrase it that way. X) no, i'm not like those obsessed fans who would go for fan meetings or autograph sessions or sleep on a pillow with rain's face on it or wear socks with pictures of BYJ printed on them, (the socks one is scary. like a hidden fetish. imagine a market aunty pulling off her shoe to reveal BYJ's face! ackk!) nor do i drown myself in the ringing soundtrack of the current in-drama. please don't ever picture me as any of the above, thank you very much.
back to the learning korean thing. anyone wanna learn too? it's nicer to have a buddy. the more the merrier. i think i'll have an easy time cause i've learned BY MYSELF how to read (muahaha. internet jjang!) and i realized it's 10 times easier than chinese and 100000 times easier than french. tell me if you wanna learn too! even if it's just for fun, like a one month thing. *teeth-smile*

oh yes, did i ever mention i quit greek? one year of insanity (french) is enough for me. i got stuck at the second volume of greek and seriously got mad, mostly at my tiny brain for spitting all i want to learn out. replaced it with some college old testament survey which supposedly gets more difficult towards the end of the course, but hey it's anytime closer to home for me than GREEK. a lesson for my future decision making: avoid mediterranean languages written in squiggly form. AHA, no lah, i learned not to overestimate myself. i thought after french nothing was impossible, but whatever, greek's worse.

i am not very smart. art's just my thing. my only thing! *cries*

maths test tomorrow. whaiting!

Good Rainy Afternoon, Everybody...
last week was a normal boring week so i didn't really bother to post anything. having a bad sore throat now (depressed) and my head feels oozy and my neck feels like it's been used as a punching bag. ah, the flu bug. to sum up the feeling, it's like i've been trampled over by alot of people.

yesterday ABM celebrated its 5th birthday! whoo~ was glad to see daphne and CY and so many people there. i actually was feeling kind of sick so that sorta blocked my gladness from showing on my face. sorry if i looked grumpy, didn't mean it. i wore my funny orange batik dress which made me look old, but i don't mind. :) took some pics while waiting to go home.

omo, sarang heh~

haha, geil's dad.