today some new teens came for teens club, which was very refreshing. thank God!

after teens club and choir i met mommy at yishun and went to see MAMA! (gran) she looks good. =) she ate her dinner well and we brought her down for a walk around the hospital. gave the cafeteria food a try (it's not bad!) and took pictures. she REALLY likes taking pictures, oddly. while we were snapping away isa came, to gran's delight. after some time we brought her back up to watch some TV, then we tucked her in at bed time. isa drove us back (thanks isa) and now i'm pretty tired. pics of the nonyas~

i was laughing so hard cause mommy was taking this photo and signaled with her hands -1,2, then mama shouted "CHEE!"

i think we look like monkeys.

brought gran down to the 'kopitiam' at GH. we asked her if she wanted something light. dessert? popiah? then suddenly she said, YONG TAO FU! wah. after she ate her diarrhea started again and she got really upset. before that she was in a jolly good mood. *hais..* today she's moved to AMK!

some pics of sher's sweet sixteenth. i wish i had eaten more..

what's up with my hair. why i always end up so un-glam one.

Tim, what's with the pose??

after trying to dunk her in so many times...

see i ready to push her in already!

HAHA i poured water on her head while she was posing, but the camera didn't catch it! wasted...

look at all those hands ready to embed her face into the cake. tsk tsk tsk.

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today:
pretty tired now, just came back from visiting gran. she was alright but got a little depressed because of her diarrhea. =( mommy changed her pampers 3 times!! it stank real bad. nurses are wonderwomen. changing pampers no joke one okay! oh, gran didn't get to move to AMK on friday cause her blood potassium level's too high so got risk of HEART ATTACK!~ but now it's normal so she's moving tomorrow. thank GOD.

yesterday:
was real depressed about my skin so mom brought me to the docs to get some real meds. i wanted some oral medication cause it's really strong and works quick, but the doc said my face isn't that bad and some topical antibiotic gels would do. at least the doc wasn't just interested in selling the most expensive stuff lah, caring doctor. he was so long winded explaining about all the different options. my acne is a hormonal thing so it flares up regularly, if you know what i mean. it's not that i'm unhygienic or anything, no okay! haha. anyway, gonna apply me meds religiously and hope for good results.
after going to the doctor in the morning i had breakfast with mommy, a rare event. she stuffed me with half-boiled eggs and bread. went to telipok for teens club, then went for choir.

the rainy weather, is awesome.

had some fun fun at sher's birthday celebration on sunday. it was raining and raining, and it was freezing at my place when i left the house, but thank God the rain stopped just for sher. the field at sembawang park wasn't even muddy or anything. went to print some photos for sher, then waited for pickup at the mrt station. met aunty joanna and her girls at the bus stop waiting there too. we didn't recognize each other at first, funny.
so anyway, we reached the park first and helped set up the grrand bbq area while uncle CJ and the boys went to bring MORE chairs and stuff and fetch MORE people. a while later everyone arrived and we went to play games. frisbee. again. sighs. and captain's ball. again too. double sighs. was hoping for some funny icebreakers or something, you know, the kind that make you laugh and laugh. (i doubt you are getting what i mean.) i was already really tired from the past days' lack of sleep so i just ran around wobbling, a bit like a drunk, screaming more than playing. when did i start to scream so much? i scream when i get the ball, i scream when someone else gets the ball, i scream when someone drops the ball. i apologize to everyone who has gone partially deaf because of me. sorry sorry.
after games we ate, after eating we tried to throw sher into the sea. (sea sounds more dramatic than water.) the people carrying her kept throwing her in legs first, so, shil peh. on our last try me and another girl were supposed to push her in baptismal style, on her shoulders, but that girl last minute no strength so i ended up falling into the water WITH sher. spent the night trying to dry off my shorts.
took lots of pics, then went home. reached back around 9. came home and K.O.-ed.

i think i have insomnia. have a harrrrd time falling asleep nowadays. =(

gran gonna move to AMK rehab center on friday. =)

just came back from hospital. yesterday and today dad and i went at around 5 (reach).

yesterday:
we brought chicken soup for gran. she asked for it. nothing herbal, just potatoes and stuff. she ate alot! later her porridge came for dinner, but she said she was too full. after a while she was curious and asked me to let her taste it, and she ended up eating it (just some, but still). haha, was glad she ate well. after a few minutes she was all chatty and jokey. i brought my sketch book and tried to draw her, just to cheer her up. took pictures and showed them to her. technology confounds her. wah, a few times i really was holding back my tears while i was watching her! i control okay. just, alot of thoughts passed by me, emo lar. i can usually take alot of sad things without shedding a tear, but when it comes to old people and children i have a soft spot. was blinking and blinking like crazy-spastic person. (lol). listened to her talk about all sorts of things.. mostly gossiping about other patients. (ha) thank God, she has nice neighbours. they like her so much cause she's "cute and quiet". isa came and brought the promised siew mai for gran. then mom and tim came after work. after some time isa went home and we had dinner. went back to the ward to tuck gran in and left after 8. snapshots yesterday:

yum yum. chicken soup 'jjang'! (best!)

milk before bed. :)

today:
daddy brought the potent pig's stomach soup that gran ordered yesterday. he dumped in lots of pepper but gran said it wasn't enough. (WAH..) we grabbed some chicken pies from cheers on the way to her block cause we were hungry. the popo beside gran recognizes us instantly now. when i walked into the ward she wanted to shout hello, but i put my finger to my mouth signaling for her to be quiet first. then i walked pass my gran with my head down. "EHH!!!" she screamed with her eyes wide open! so funny. me and the popo laughed at her. gran ate the WHOLE TUMBLER-THING of soup! all the ginko nuts and whatever. she happily rejected the porridge provided right after that. oh, she very funny lah. she took the french loaf my uncle bought for her and broke it up and mixed it in the soup, like western style. later she asked me, "eh. you got bring the thing to take picture?" HAHA, she acts shy but she loves taking pictures okay. took more pics of her and let her see them. " yeeee hiao ah loo~" she exclaimed. she continued chatting and telling funny stories (mostly made up lah), then i showed her some vids of bran, or van as she calls him. let her inspect my bag too.. when she saw my make up pouch she made a big fuss. THEN she got hold of my sunglasses. i wore them and she laughed and laughed, then she wanted to wear them! told her to pose for me and she said OKAY! HAHAHA~ after all that she was quite lifted in spirits, so, thank God. mom came after work again. after a while we went to eat, then tucked gran in and left at around 9. pics from today:

obsessed with my phone-cam. AH mama chantek!

ISABELLA!! she love yoo too!!

WAH mama cool ah! preety ah! ai yuuuuuu~

thanks to everyone who's come so far. she really wants to see people and feel loved and wanted. if you have time, feel very free to drop by! i think she's getting better fast, now with her usual resolve kicking back in. in the beginning of the week she was saying funny things like going back to heaven and stuff, but i think the visits put away those thoughts. maybe God gave me this funny face so i could make her happy! anyway, thanks to everyone who's been praying for her too! doesn't she look better? :)

i really hope she bounces back like she always has. mama fighting!

on saturday mom and tim and i went to the hospital. tim had some checkup to do for his eyes. family has history of glaucoma. the eye center is very near SGH so, i tagged along to go see her after the checkup. at the eye center we met up with our mom's colleague who used to work there. tim and i were joking away.. kids central was on and we were reminded of our pokemon days. suddenly this spinning pikachu came up on the screen sending me into a frenzy of laughter. tim was closing his eyes for the eyedrops to set in but he couldn't help opening them after hearing my gagging! he ended up gagging along. after that he was trying to recall the name of a show with dakota fanning in it and he was describing it to me with his eyes closed.
T: you know.. dakota fanning.. the alien show.. what's the title...
A: war of the worlds? what?
T: no no another one.. the mini series one..
A: umm... (starts to walk away from seat quietly.)
T: (blabbers on to empty seat in front of eyerybody)
A: (gagging)
Mom: where you going? (to agnes)
A: SSSHHHHHH!!! (all sorts of hand signals.)
T: *blah blah*... why so quiet? (opens eyes; embarrassed face; turns to me with smoke coming out of his ears.)

he spent the next minute whacking and scolding me. but it was worth it. AHA!

after a while we figured we should go see gran while waiting for tim's eyedrop thing to work. she was having dialysis so we went there and found jamie at her side. the only thing jamie understood all that while was that "... my girl, missy. my boy, taxi!" meaning my mom was a nurse and my uncle was a taxi driver. got action one, hilarious. jamie stayed with us for quite a while. then isa came after she left. gran recognized isa! =) spent time listening to her woes.. found out she has a painful lump on her right side.. around her chest area. waiting for docs to check out what in the world it is. also, docs told my mom that gran CANNOT GO FOR SURGERY because her heart won't take it. now the plan is heavy painkillers and therapy? i'm not sure. she'll probably stay for another week or so.

yesterday i was seriously going to go see gran but my mom told me to go home and SLEEP because i've been kinda worried and i didn't really get any sleep on friday and saturday nights. the back of my head felt like there were rocks weighing it down.. so, i gave it a pass. slpt for a longg time at home. feeling okay now.

dad went to visit gran, and is bringing ah mah along cause she wanted to go. i feel like going too.

pics!
waiting game.

abducted by aliens! this machine toughes your eyeball. ACK!

painful eyedrops.

yes, close your eyes.

his specs shrink the eyes. goodness, tim is prettier than me. TSKK!

gran and isa.

mom wiping her back.

mommy went to the hospital to talk to the doctor today about by gran. seems like she's gonna need surgery to get a bionic leg. (i'm not good at making medical things sound sensible, excuse me. ha~) so, it's not her hip that's fractured, it's her femur. (spelling?) i was quite surprised that there really was a fracture cause i figured if she could walk around for a few days with the injury it shouldn't be anything that serious, but what do you know, thus is the threshold of pain of an old woman who shuns the hospital. anyway, gran is alright other than the fact that she can't move around and she's afraid of operations. thanks for the thoughts and the prayers and the messages everyboday, we feel the love. <3