today some new teens came for teens club, which was very refreshing. thank God!

after teens club and choir i met mommy at yishun and went to see MAMA! (gran) she looks good. =) she ate her dinner well and we brought her down for a walk around the hospital. gave the cafeteria food a try (it's not bad!) and took pictures. she REALLY likes taking pictures, oddly. while we were snapping away isa came, to gran's delight. after some time we brought her back up to watch some TV, then we tucked her in at bed time. isa drove us back (thanks isa) and now i'm pretty tired. pics of the nonyas~

i was laughing so hard cause mommy was taking this photo and signaled with her hands -1,2, then mama shouted "CHEE!"

i think we look like monkeys.

brought gran down to the 'kopitiam' at GH. we asked her if she wanted something light. dessert? popiah? then suddenly she said, YONG TAO FU! wah. after she ate her diarrhea started again and she got really upset. before that she was in a jolly good mood. *hais..* today she's moved to AMK!

some pics of sher's sweet sixteenth. i wish i had eaten more..

what's up with my hair. why i always end up so un-glam one.

Tim, what's with the pose??

after trying to dunk her in so many times...

see i ready to push her in already!

HAHA i poured water on her head while she was posing, but the camera didn't catch it! wasted...

look at all those hands ready to embed her face into the cake. tsk tsk tsk.

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today:
pretty tired now, just came back from visiting gran. she was alright but got a little depressed because of her diarrhea. =( mommy changed her pampers 3 times!! it stank real bad. nurses are wonderwomen. changing pampers no joke one okay! oh, gran didn't get to move to AMK on friday cause her blood potassium level's too high so got risk of HEART ATTACK!~ but now it's normal so she's moving tomorrow. thank GOD.

yesterday:
was real depressed about my skin so mom brought me to the docs to get some real meds. i wanted some oral medication cause it's really strong and works quick, but the doc said my face isn't that bad and some topical antibiotic gels would do. at least the doc wasn't just interested in selling the most expensive stuff lah, caring doctor. he was so long winded explaining about all the different options. my acne is a hormonal thing so it flares up regularly, if you know what i mean. it's not that i'm unhygienic or anything, no okay! haha. anyway, gonna apply me meds religiously and hope for good results.
after going to the doctor in the morning i had breakfast with mommy, a rare event. she stuffed me with half-boiled eggs and bread. went to telipok for teens club, then went for choir.

the rainy weather, is awesome.

had some fun fun at sher's birthday celebration on sunday. it was raining and raining, and it was freezing at my place when i left the house, but thank God the rain stopped just for sher. the field at sembawang park wasn't even muddy or anything. went to print some photos for sher, then waited for pickup at the mrt station. met aunty joanna and her girls at the bus stop waiting there too. we didn't recognize each other at first, funny.
so anyway, we reached the park first and helped set up the grrand bbq area while uncle CJ and the boys went to bring MORE chairs and stuff and fetch MORE people. a while later everyone arrived and we went to play games. frisbee. again. sighs. and captain's ball. again too. double sighs. was hoping for some funny icebreakers or something, you know, the kind that make you laugh and laugh. (i doubt you are getting what i mean.) i was already really tired from the past days' lack of sleep so i just ran around wobbling, a bit like a drunk, screaming more than playing. when did i start to scream so much? i scream when i get the ball, i scream when someone else gets the ball, i scream when someone drops the ball. i apologize to everyone who has gone partially deaf because of me. sorry sorry.
after games we ate, after eating we tried to throw sher into the sea. (sea sounds more dramatic than water.) the people carrying her kept throwing her in legs first, so, shil peh. on our last try me and another girl were supposed to push her in baptismal style, on her shoulders, but that girl last minute no strength so i ended up falling into the water WITH sher. spent the night trying to dry off my shorts.
took lots of pics, then went home. reached back around 9. came home and K.O.-ed.

i think i have insomnia. have a harrrrd time falling asleep nowadays. =(

gran gonna move to AMK rehab center on friday. =)

just came back from hospital. yesterday and today dad and i went at around 5 (reach).

yesterday:
we brought chicken soup for gran. she asked for it. nothing herbal, just potatoes and stuff. she ate alot! later her porridge came for dinner, but she said she was too full. after a while she was curious and asked me to let her taste it, and she ended up eating it (just some, but still). haha, was glad she ate well. after a few minutes she was all chatty and jokey. i brought my sketch book and tried to draw her, just to cheer her up. took pictures and showed them to her. technology confounds her. wah, a few times i really was holding back my tears while i was watching her! i control okay. just, alot of thoughts passed by me, emo lar. i can usually take alot of sad things without shedding a tear, but when it comes to old people and children i have a soft spot. was blinking and blinking like crazy-spastic person. (lol). listened to her talk about all sorts of things.. mostly gossiping about other patients. (ha) thank God, she has nice neighbours. they like her so much cause she's "cute and quiet". isa came and brought the promised siew mai for gran. then mom and tim came after work. after some time isa went home and we had dinner. went back to the ward to tuck gran in and left after 8. snapshots yesterday:

yum yum. chicken soup 'jjang'! (best!)

milk before bed. :)

today:
daddy brought the potent pig's stomach soup that gran ordered yesterday. he dumped in lots of pepper but gran said it wasn't enough. (WAH..) we grabbed some chicken pies from cheers on the way to her block cause we were hungry. the popo beside gran recognizes us instantly now. when i walked into the ward she wanted to shout hello, but i put my finger to my mouth signaling for her to be quiet first. then i walked pass my gran with my head down. "EHH!!!" she screamed with her eyes wide open! so funny. me and the popo laughed at her. gran ate the WHOLE TUMBLER-THING of soup! all the ginko nuts and whatever. she happily rejected the porridge provided right after that. oh, she very funny lah. she took the french loaf my uncle bought for her and broke it up and mixed it in the soup, like western style. later she asked me, "eh. you got bring the thing to take picture?" HAHA, she acts shy but she loves taking pictures okay. took more pics of her and let her see them. " yeeee hiao ah loo~" she exclaimed. she continued chatting and telling funny stories (mostly made up lah), then i showed her some vids of bran, or van as she calls him. let her inspect my bag too.. when she saw my make up pouch she made a big fuss. THEN she got hold of my sunglasses. i wore them and she laughed and laughed, then she wanted to wear them! told her to pose for me and she said OKAY! HAHAHA~ after all that she was quite lifted in spirits, so, thank God. mom came after work again. after a while we went to eat, then tucked gran in and left at around 9. pics from today:

obsessed with my phone-cam. AH mama chantek!

ISABELLA!! she love yoo too!!

WAH mama cool ah! preety ah! ai yuuuuuu~

thanks to everyone who's come so far. she really wants to see people and feel loved and wanted. if you have time, feel very free to drop by! i think she's getting better fast, now with her usual resolve kicking back in. in the beginning of the week she was saying funny things like going back to heaven and stuff, but i think the visits put away those thoughts. maybe God gave me this funny face so i could make her happy! anyway, thanks to everyone who's been praying for her too! doesn't she look better? :)

i really hope she bounces back like she always has. mama fighting!

on saturday mom and tim and i went to the hospital. tim had some checkup to do for his eyes. family has history of glaucoma. the eye center is very near SGH so, i tagged along to go see her after the checkup. at the eye center we met up with our mom's colleague who used to work there. tim and i were joking away.. kids central was on and we were reminded of our pokemon days. suddenly this spinning pikachu came up on the screen sending me into a frenzy of laughter. tim was closing his eyes for the eyedrops to set in but he couldn't help opening them after hearing my gagging! he ended up gagging along. after that he was trying to recall the name of a show with dakota fanning in it and he was describing it to me with his eyes closed.
T: you know.. dakota fanning.. the alien show.. what's the title...
A: war of the worlds? what?
T: no no another one.. the mini series one..
A: umm... (starts to walk away from seat quietly.)
T: (blabbers on to empty seat in front of eyerybody)
A: (gagging)
Mom: where you going? (to agnes)
A: SSSHHHHHH!!! (all sorts of hand signals.)
T: *blah blah*... why so quiet? (opens eyes; embarrassed face; turns to me with smoke coming out of his ears.)

he spent the next minute whacking and scolding me. but it was worth it. AHA!

after a while we figured we should go see gran while waiting for tim's eyedrop thing to work. she was having dialysis so we went there and found jamie at her side. the only thing jamie understood all that while was that "... my girl, missy. my boy, taxi!" meaning my mom was a nurse and my uncle was a taxi driver. got action one, hilarious. jamie stayed with us for quite a while. then isa came after she left. gran recognized isa! =) spent time listening to her woes.. found out she has a painful lump on her right side.. around her chest area. waiting for docs to check out what in the world it is. also, docs told my mom that gran CANNOT GO FOR SURGERY because her heart won't take it. now the plan is heavy painkillers and therapy? i'm not sure. she'll probably stay for another week or so.

yesterday i was seriously going to go see gran but my mom told me to go home and SLEEP because i've been kinda worried and i didn't really get any sleep on friday and saturday nights. the back of my head felt like there were rocks weighing it down.. so, i gave it a pass. slpt for a longg time at home. feeling okay now.

dad went to visit gran, and is bringing ah mah along cause she wanted to go. i feel like going too.

pics!
waiting game.

abducted by aliens! this machine toughes your eyeball. ACK!

painful eyedrops.

yes, close your eyes.

his specs shrink the eyes. goodness, tim is prettier than me. TSKK!

gran and isa.

mom wiping her back.

mommy went to the hospital to talk to the doctor today about by gran. seems like she's gonna need surgery to get a bionic leg. (i'm not good at making medical things sound sensible, excuse me. ha~) so, it's not her hip that's fractured, it's her femur. (spelling?) i was quite surprised that there really was a fracture cause i figured if she could walk around for a few days with the injury it shouldn't be anything that serious, but what do you know, thus is the threshold of pain of an old woman who shuns the hospital. anyway, gran is alright other than the fact that she can't move around and she's afraid of operations. thanks for the thoughts and the prayers and the messages everyboday, we feel the love. <3

it seems sick week has not passed yet. (sad) this time it's granny. she fell at around 6 something AM on saturday. i was sleeping in the hall so i heard her fall. um, anyway long story short, she was in GRRREAT pain last night, at her left hip, so my parents carried her down in her wheelchair and sent her to SGH by cab. she must've looked so grand in her sedan-like chair. that was around 9pm. she got some xrays done amongst other tests, and then was warded. parents came home at 2+ AM. poor souls were exhausted, and mom didn't go to work today. they went to see her just now.

brain not really working. since that last sentence i've been sitting here for like, 10 mins staring into the screen. i shall go do something more constructive.

I AM RECOVEREDDDDDD! well, in the process, but i'm rejoicing exceedingly because my dear throat is pain freeee! i really appreciate and will take care of my good, healthy throat now. umm, i'm still coughing up phlegm-balls but that still beats throat boils, so, thank God people! it is good to be healthy.

woke up today and my dad told me to stay home instead of going to church cause i hardly slept during the night. both of us were coughing that itchy, unstoppable headache-causing cough the entire night through.. but i didn't really feel tired, so i decided to go. i told dad and mom not to go.. and daddy stumbled back into his bed mumbling, "... yah, i cannot make it one... * zzzzzzz *." haha. mommy was tired to cause daddy woke her up with his coughing. poor things..

was alright at church. i was well prepared with my jacket! had one nasty cough attack which made me listen to the sermon from behind the curtain, but i ended up dozing off while leaning on the notice board. (AIYOYOOOOH, tsk. embarrassingahhhh~) to everyone who passed by and laughed at me, i didn't do it purposely okay. blame it on the medicine. anyways, had to cancel meeting with sher. (i'm so sad about that..) came back for lunch. napped for very long and enjoyed my last day of lelexation before i gotta busy with school work tomorrow, NOOOOOOOOH!

thank you everybody, nice people, for your KIIIIND words of love. i think they helped me get better faster. positive energy lah, you know? (pfft)

jacob is in the jungles of tekong now, GAH ! jacob fighting!

happy belated birthday daphne! i hope you got my card.

AHJAH~

now daddy's down. pfft.. chain chain chainnnn~ chain of sick people! (the.. song.. nevermind.) got up at dunno what time today and found daddy zee-ing soundly. made breakfast for granny and me and cleaned up the house. i keep going to the mirror to see my throat-boils. (that's what i shall call them.) there's one on the right side of my poor throat that hurts the most, but generally i'm feeling better! now is the purging stage, where the yucky phlegm and other dead germs come out. yeah~

i hope i get totally well by sunday. i have really loud, uncontrollable cough spasms. can't imagine myself all nicely dressed and coughing and tearing like a mad person, tsk, no no cannot.

thanks for your cheers people! wah, it feels good to be loved. :D

went to the polyclinic today and waited for like forever (i know, that's just how it is there.). i didn't bounce back from my flu as i usually do within two or three days, but instead it got worse. maybe it's a sign of age. *gasps* anyway the main problem is my throat which is affecting my entire head. self-medicated for the past few days but it didn't work. there's pus in my throat, like, big boils or ulcers that HURT LIKE WHAT LAH, and i can't sleep because it's so painfullllll. so that affected my nose and ears and all, and my voice sounds really funny, like it's floating at the top of my head. (the nasallest of nasal.) AH this is the worst flu ever! pus in my throat leh, PUS! tim got a shock when he saw it. mom got mad when i told her i thought i had throat cancer. (haha. parents hate those jokes.) got my antibiotics and a whole bag of other meds, so wish me a quick recovery! for now i shall have to put up with the pain. :(

granny is singing. i haven't been bothered by her in the night lately because i've been CAMPING outside for the past week! it's so nice sleeping in the hall. so spacious compared to my wobbly loft bed.

I CAUGHT THE FLUUUUUUUUUUUU, noooooooooo! i feel horrible today. feel like there's a big wound in my throat and a medicine ball in my head. my nose is all clogged with grosse stuff too. yep, it's the flu.

gonna go eat now.

aw, roy carrying micah. she's a big bright baby with three little teeth now. she'll grow up with this karate bodyguard by her side. :)marc wearing roy's shoes. tsk, funny lah. they looked much more ridiculous in real life than in the pic. ha~

school school work work. aza!

tim and mom have been sick. tim caught the flu and has been resting since thursday, mom had bad migrane since thursday but only took friday MC. they're much better now though. :)

today i went for teens club all alonely. the lesson was KEEP THYSELF PURE. valuable lesson, hard lesson too. thank God for BJ who emphasizes these important principles, lesson after lesson, sin sanctification heart issues. it's true, everything begins in the heart. i think some of us make the mistake of conforming outwardly but still holding on to our own views. guess that's missing the point. anyways BJ touched a littttle on BGR here and there, so i think we were all paying closer attention than usual. hee..
went to chongpang for lunch with the alamons and kahyue, but KY da bao-ed home for her family. gave up on our planned ice kachang because we were too full. walked around and i bought some stuff for my cards.
choir today was so FUNNY (not normal) ! some of us were in the laughing mood. apparently my face makes people laugh. (tsk) haha~ i like choir to be like that. =)

geil i will pay you back for the IL tea tomorrow. remind me pls!

sewed a singlet for bran today! i'm bad at sewing because i wanna do it really fast so it's half torn already. partially because bran started chewing it in hate after i took it off of him. hah.

VBS! my class photo. i don't look like a teacher do i? :(

korean thirsty hippo.

*munch munch*

i love chocopie~

steamboat after shopping. daddy bought the induction heater thing cause it saves money. and it's safer.

this was on labor day! bunch of ninjas. or breakdancers.

while i was doing my school work today my mom saw an ad in the papers about becoming a language teacher for special needs kids. i remember aunty susan (sher's mom) telling me once that i could be a speech therapist. wonder why i've never really thought about studying that. taking it into serious consideration now. =) you could say i've been finding an alternative to studying art. somehow i just don't think that's all i'm meant to do, but that's just what i'm good at and what i reallly enjoy. this whole future, next-phase-of-life thing is pretty confusing and quite scary, but anyway, i'm just praying about it. everybody's kicking up a big fuss about my ambition and plans. some people believe in me and others are just blatantly skeptical (about whether i can make it academically and socially).

people's view of me can be really frustrating sometimes. they see me and treat me like a really swa ku person who "doesn't know what real life is like" and "is not well-rounded". yes, some people have said that to my face. got alot more remarks also lah.. too many to say. fortunately, unlike ALOT of other homeschoolers, i have decided not to feed the urge to prove myself, which is why when i get remarks like that i just smile. i don't have to prove myself cool or street-wise. that's kind of egoistic. haha. when i was youngER i did lah, must make myself look athletic (which is why i started the whole stupid muscle thing and now my arms are huge) and i must be very charismatic and i must talk with the teen twang and must do this and that. thank God lah, i grew up a little. :D i find it easier to be myself now, and i like having the good girl aura.

anyway, how'd i veer to such a weird subject? i'm considering studying something to do with special needs kids. :) that's all i originally wanted to say. heh.

my, like, 7th journal is finishing (pages) and i'm gonna get a new one. my journal very funny one.. it's like a multipurpose book. i write everything in it, study notes, daily thoughts, angry letters, sermon notes, art ideas, (dumb) poems, short stories, etc, so it's a super top secret book, cause it's basically my brain in ink on paper. but now i'm gonna compile all my poems in one book. maybe it'd be finished by the time i'm.. 80. or 90. HAH.

i'm saving up for korean lessons. KEE!

we had a celebratory dinner just now, dad and mom's b-day's combined. this time we used two table stovie things! one for soup and the other for frying. parents bought like, a truckload of food back from NTUC. yummy stuff! (got sushi also leh, ayeeee~) ^^ i stuffed myself.

HAPPY BIRFDAY AH BEAR!

been into this show called two days one night that I FIND super fun to watch. (other people don't find it fun, but whatever.) TWO DAYS ONE NIGHT! yaaaaaaaaaaah.

i know i haven't been blogging much lately, well nothing much has been happening! usual week, although mom's home. she took two weeks leave, one more week to go. anyway my parents were pretty busy running to hospital to see isa and my uncle. i just stayed home and did my work. flunked a test and passed another. =\

on thursday mommy and i went a'shopping after i finished my school (early!). NOVENA SQUARE ! we went there mainly to see that 'korean floor', but we covered the entire mall. :D mom finally got to buy clothes from this shop she'd been eyeing on called FOND.. some sweet clothes there. and come on, it's the best time to shop. GREAT s'pore sale leh~ anyways, i got two nice dresses and a top which has had some mixed reviews, e.g. pajamas, sweater, jacket, etc. (lol, pajamas!!) one dress i got was totally a shocker -- $19 only! and it looks so niiiiiiiiiiiiiice lah. i was actually waiting for mom who was trying something and i saw it in a pile of OFFERed clothes, just pulled it out to try for fun but when i tried it it was too sweet to leave behind!
sales lady: wow that looks nice! (probably regretting setting the price so low.)
mom: ya nice! okay lah you change back and think whether you wanna buy it anot.
agnes: i think no need to think already. hahaha.
when we finally got to the korean floor i went bersek for some reason. no lah, we went into this korean mart and i just found it so cool, cause everything was in korean and the people were talking in korean. like LITTLE KOREA. and i saw things i'd seen on tv before in dramas. cool what, not cool meh? TSK. bought some bulgogi and kimchi and CHOCOPIE and other stuff. after alot more walking we came home and ate the bulgogi for dinner. dad set up the stove thing on the table. so cooooooool. ^^

went for teens club on sat and some new guy called alvin came. :) the lesson was really appropriate-- ecclesiastes 11:9,10 ; 12:1. i've heard many messages on that passage before, but it's always a good reminder. had another cup noodle picnic with the alamon duo and stayed for choir. went back home after that and met bro mike and sis joyce along the way. they're so stylo with their shades.
was DADDY'S B'DAY too! so we had a nice dinner downstairs and i gave him a nice big card. :)

went out with raye after church last sunday. ^^ she treated me to lunch since she owes me a bankload of money. (i've been paying for small things all these years. not that she took a big loan from me or anything. it just adds up. she feels bad about it.) we wanna learn korean at the end of the year, hahah.

vbs outing was last sat too. my shoulders are still aching from carrying the buckets of water, ALTHO i only walked a few meters before help came. on sat evening my shoulders were swollen, especially the right one, and i looked like the hulk. and no, i didn't grow any tanner after all that running in the sun. not even a shade down. i am bound to be a pale teochew-perenakan all my life. the only time a was tan was after that kayaking course, but after all the skin peeled off i was white as ever. =\
thank God for the children that came for the outing, and on sunday too.

PLEASE PRAY FOR ISA, that her hand will be okay and her fingers will heal, most of all that she'll be strong. story in short: she gotta bad cut on left index finger, went to doctor's, got it stitched. but it got infected real bad and swelled up and turned brown so she went to hospital. she went for review and had to be warded. going for surgery . keep her in your mind and prayers!